Each of us will one day find that place of peace

I have been distracted for over a month now by some type of angst that has made me question my reasons for posting the messages I get from the quiet... still voice that somehow speaks to me through the veil... I wanted you to know, not as others have suggested, that the angst comes not from anyone posting in CureZone but rather.... the reason for my angst has been within myself and the angels I have been wrestling with night and day. I lost the battle of wills. I am no prophet or anything close to that...but rather... I died... and returned to this world... and it changed me from someone who literally...at 14 years of age... fantasized about flying to Moscow in a huge glider... with a nuclear device attached... and in my fantasy exploding it over the Kremlin... killing millions of Russians... but then... on my return from the other side...into a person who doesn't want to kill anyone... I learned to fly airplanes when I was 15 years old. My pastor had impressed upon me who the enemies of God were.... Atheists/Communists(Russians- Chinese- Vietnamese)... Catholics(Evil Believers in the Anti-Christ Pope) Jews/ Muslims(Read Black people)... Homosexuals... Homeless People( Lazy People who do not want to work)... all War Protesters(Really Communists)/Women who wanted equal rights or if you want to wrap them up and call them one thing... Liberals... I was headed well on my way to realizing my fantasy after I joined the the military to defend God and Country from the forces of evil... but I died on my way to a military school before I had a chance to kill milions of people... I met a God who didn't really like that word "God"... and I learned that all the people my pastor told me were the enemies of God... were loved by a more feminine version of God or should I say less masculine version of God that loved the tiny little bit of light in me even... and the light in you... and all of the light from every soul everywhere... I couldn't go back to the church of my former pastor... would be a slap in the face to the ultimate truth that there is a loving being of light beyond time waiting for the light in you...and the light in me... and all of the light in every "Liberal" out there... and even for the tiny little light in the anti-Liberals who only love anti-Liberals.... I thought I was finished saying my sayings but the words keep coming so I guess for now at least... I am compelled to say whatever it is that I say... Take it all for the grain of salt it is... one soul's perception of the trillions upon umpteenth trillions of perceptions of timelessness,,,, Y-h bless http://curezone.com/forums/fm.asp?i=562786#i