Personal Freedom Indeed

Mr. T ... I think of you as someone who is very kind and wise. Today I was given my walking papers to freedom. The company I've worked at for the last year or so is downsizing, and I was laid off. They are paying me through the end of February, have offered excellent references, blah blah blah. The usual bulls**t. I've had a feeling that something like this was in the offing. But, dear Lord, the kick in the gut is pretty damned painful. I remain calm, because that is what I do. Emotional displays have never come naturally to me. Part of me feels so free; this could be just the boot in the ass I've needed to find an occupation that suits me. But I'm a single mom and that awful dread is trying to creep in and stymie me. I rarely feel fear anymore, haven't for many years. But the "recession" (depression) has come home to roost for me. I find myself turning to forum friends ... too many real friends are calling me and I can't bring myself to respond. Thanks for reading.