Sounds like you have the kind of job I want, hmmm. Mind you I would probably end up as unconventional as Jack Nicholson in One Flew over the Cuckoo's nest, Robin Williams in Patch Adams or Joanne Whalley in Breathtaking (you probably don't know that one). And if someone was telling me "I hate myself, I am a failure", I would need a good pair of headphones and an ipod, or some means of changing the conversation, e.g. "Oh look, is that Brad Pitt over there?"
You are going to have an interesting time though, giving up smoking tends to make you put on weight, but I think you should try that at the same time or before. I used acupuncture, see http://curezone.org/forums/fm.asp?i=1186991#i - maybe try this first? Although they do say that fasting makes you want to give up smoking too. But the acupuncture feels as though you had never smoked, it's weird!
Anyway good luck Willow, be interesting to see how you cope with the two things, smoking and weight loss. I am sure you will though...
Oh and I fixed your duplicate message, see your email, ha ha