can anyone help?

I'm 20, I've been sick for quite a while, have had meniere's disease for 7 years and hypothyroid(not yet treated) for the past 2 or 3. I started university last year and had to drop out because I could not attend enough class in order to keep up, was sick all the time. I started over again this past semester with high hopes and it's slipping again. I have so much trouble falling asleep because my right ear rings 24/7

I feel like i'm losing my personality, i feel so tired I can barely think, and socially I can barely function. I am so lonely. I am set to see an endocrinologist on Monday and can hopefully start some kind of treatment for my thyroid then. mentally I feel so unusually slow. I put on 60 pounds over 5 months last year, which then stopped but won't come off. I've had 4 periods over the last year and a half. I look and feel like a mess.

I had such high hopes for university and life in general and feels like it's collapsing in on itself, I'm trying to keep up with school but it's so hard these days. and every time my little brother starts talking about the music program he's about to start in (long story but I'd always planned to major in music up till I had to have an ear surgery that made it impossible to play my instrument for 2 years) I have to try really hard not to break into tears. it may sound stupid but I am so jealous and it feels like he's stolen my life. i hope i don't sound like a huge brat but it hurts so much to see him where I have always wanted to be.

my ability to cope with being sick is less these days, I'm getting frustrated really easy, I'm so tired I can barely get out of bed in the morning, things are feeling kind of bleak. I need help

there is so much more to say but i can't think straight and I think this is getting ridiculously long. I feel extremely lost at the moment. any help or advice at all would be greatly appreciated Tweet