Re: The 'death' of a White Overtone World Bridger

I am a White Overtone World Bridger and I wanted to respond about the issue of the 'death'. I experienced this almost 10 years ago and it was profound.

Let me explain, the 4-5 years prior to the 'death' were full of anxiety along with the awareness that I was extremely unfulfilled. I went into a deep and prolonged Depression (which was not a Depression at all but an intense inner desire to change).I cut myself off by degrees from my life and everything within it, yet I felt I was making a positive choice. I moved to a secluded house in the countryside and spent a snow-bound winter indoors, freezing, broke and hungry. I cried every day for 6 solid months. I now understand, it was a great purging.

Now, anyone reading this would be forgiven for thinking that I was going mental, but all the while I felt powerfully driven by something basic and fecund. I 'needed' to retreat to heal, almost like an intensive deconstruction was in progress and I felt a tremendous primal urge to facilitate that healing.

Then, one random day, I decided to give up completely. That was it, I wasn't going any further with this life and all its suffocating boundaries. A clarity came over me and I 'decided' to die. I never questioned it, I never feared it and I never thought it was a strange thing to accept or invite. That was the exact moment my life completely transformed.

I had waking vision, I have since learned that this is called a hypnagogic vision(my first of 4 to date!). I saw a dark figure enter the room in a beautiful long black robe, his head was covered. He stood in the room very near to me and I instantly felt a real love and peace emanate from him. He was like someone I had once known and my soul leapt with happiness that he came to see me again. It was best described as 'bliss'.

I surrendered my life to him there and then and willed him to take me with him. I remember feeling that I was going home. At no point were there any negative reactions towards this event as it was happening. I felt him draw 'a' life from my body and then, in what seemed like hours later, he left. I was ecstatic.

I believe the life he drew from my body that day was the life I had previously lived and he simply cleared it out of the way so my new life could take over. I am literally a different person, my tastes and likes are vastly different. I can hand on heart say that I was only born the day I 'died'.

My advice to any White Overtone World Bridger who is seeking their 'death' is to first acknowledge that your current life is too small for your big self. Accept that you might become radically changed by the event and therefore you may have to go to great lengths to achieve it. One thing I know about White Overtone World Bridgers is that they love challenges and can be defiant if someone tries to hold them back (although, ironically, you may not believe that right now). Embrace that and release your old life.

Good luck to all on this unique and beautiful journey.
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