"... and my life seems more like an ocean rather then just a little puddle on the sidewalk."
Ever see the moon in a puddle? Or the sun? They are *not* the puddle, but neither is the puddle the puddle. :-)
"imperishable patience", as Michael said in a post a few days ago. Hold it in your heart-mind and make of yourself a little temple. Lots of space inside for the Light. there's really no "little" or "big". It's all Beloved.