You have every right to feel lonely and depressed. Allow youself time to grieve then set a time limit when you will leave that state to move into another place where you'll find happiness. Your exquisite baby deserves a mother who is whole and happy. You are already on course as you are reaching out to a forum that encourages a change in you. You have most likely crossed the veil. Be careful though that happiness is not in another relationship with a man. Find your strength first with yourself and your child. Every adversity is + in the long run. Hard to see it when your in it though. Trust in the universal law that things happen for a reason. This percieved loss is a blessing that will move you on a path you were meant to be on. In time, you will look back on this and actually thank the father of your child for leaving as his absence allowed you to soar to places you never thought of. Sometimes people come into our lives for a short time and was only meant for a short time. In the universal scope of things, perhaps his only meaning in your life was to have fathered your remarkable child then have moved on. You have blessings not recongnized yet, but in time you will. In time you will....