The "Program" only lies within yourself. You are still reaching out to mortals for the big answer. Ask the Universe for happiness and it is much like placing an order, and it will accomodate you. Trust in you and your universal thoughts of happiness. I'll contradict myself a bit here but read "The Secret." Go to the Law of Attraction forum here in CureZone. There, you may find the answer to put you on course....Again, in my other posts - do something nice for a stranger then walk away. Compliment someone. Leave an envelope with a dollar in it in a library book with a note to say happy day. The book may never be checked out for years, but trust me it will find the right person at the right time and you will never know it, but trust in the Universe to place your order. Happiness comes from a secret place within you. Do happy things where no-one knows you've done them. It will come back to you tenfold. For yourself, put some grass and a pretty flower in a ziplock bag with some perfume and put it in your freezer. Open it in winter during the long doldrums and smell summer. Be grateful. The more you think of these things to do, the more naturally you will be happy. Your child will see the change.