Breaking the fast today, day 4

I am really upset with myself. But the more upset I become, the more I feel like eating to console myself. I had managed until today, day 4, but was feeling very upset and almost angry with no valid reason at all. I just wanted my daily drug: food. No real discomfort,NO HUNGER AT ALL, but the desire to comfort myself by eating. I dont know what I am going to do with myself. They never talk about my addiction. As a matter of fact, the system is always telling you..."eat, eat, eat!!"

My culture is really oriented to heavy foods. We eat paellas and yellow rices (read rices with all kinds of vegetables and meats (red, white, fish) combined). And I also believe my culture is the queen of the bean pots (read fabadas and others).

I have noticed Latin Americans eat a lot of beans, but in simpler ways, Americans and Mexicans too. They do not add so many and varied meats to their bean pots.

I once tried to stick to gazpacho only but since I am always cold I am not very fond of it. I prefer hot meals.

I live in South Florida with access to a very inexpensive olive oil (I guess because the many Cubans around who inhereted the habit from us). Any way, olive oil should be consumed in moderate amounts as Americans do. And I am making the comment because I guess that is responsible for my good cholesterol levels in spite of my heavy size. About the only healthy thing in my kitchen/culture.

I belive some one told me I may be have a Iodide deficiency which will explain my lower temperatures. I wanted to address that, and my obvious toxic state by fasting. I dont know, at this point, if I should detox first and attemtp fast later, or viceversa.

A little voice inside tells me fasting is superior and a lot easier. It is also quicker and less expensive than other methods.

But then, I tried and failed. I have to try again. At least I managed to keep it until day 4 (fools' consolation may be)

Excuse my nonsense talking. I simpley dont know what to think about me and doubt my ability to address this problem.

Thanks so much to you all. Reading you all brighten my days.