Illness and husband's deployment causing depression

Hi Bella,

I just came across this forum. Usually I post in the Candida forum.

Here's my situation in a nutshell. I have been sick for nearly 13 years with systemic candida, parasites, heavy metal toxicity, Epstein Barr snd hypothyroidism. For those 13 years I have gone from doctor to doctor, be they medical doctors, homeopaths, naturopaths, etc. I have tried nearly every treatment out there. Nothing has helped. I recently came across a naturopath dr. and while I won't be going to him because I felt he jumped down my throat for no reason, what he said made sense. That until you find the main, underlying cause and treat it for the health problems you have, you won't get well. Makes sense.

My husband of 3 1/2 years recently deployed for the second time to Iraq (third deployment to the Middle East). My husband was the best thing that ever happened in my life. He has been my prince charming, knight in shining armour and I thank God every day for him. Since he has been gone, I have been profoundly depressed and can't seem to shake it. I am trying all the things people recommend like taking up extra activities, going to church, etc. but nothing helps. The thing is, I know my health conditions make it harder for me to snap out of it, as they affect the physiology of the brain. I have no interest in life, I am tired of fighting a war that can't seem to be won with above listed health problems, I was trying to start a children's business and have now lost interest in that, and I don't know what to do, to get out of this funk. In the past, I would keep fighting, reading everything I could on my health conditions, researching for hours on end to try to find an answer, all to no avail. I am always known amongst my friends and family for being tenacious and never giving up to find an answer out of this hell. But nothing is working and I'm beyond tired. It's like I'm fighting constantly just to maintain a functionable pain level and that pain is barely tolerable.

My question is then, how do I get past the depression from not being able to see my husband for almost a year, get past the depression of not being able to get well, money issues, etc.? I have been looking into Reconnective Healing as it sounds really intersting, but just thought I would ask if you had any suggestions. Thanks.

Kirstin