Re: Here's another thought...

I don't have a credit card. I'm not sure if my credit is good enough to get anything more than a secured credit card...which wouldn't help at all.

I considered the women's shelter but...you know, I understand that emotional abuse is horrible, just as horrible as physical. I don't know if I'd feel comfortable taking a room there, and leaving all my stuff here, if women are being beaten near half to death.

Pride isn't too much of an issue. When I found out my health insurance ran out, and I was going to have to pay over $200 per visit, for my pregnancy, plus lab work, I immediately got a WIC appointment, and filled out the applications for food stamps and medicaid. Unfortunately, I lost them before I had all my paperwork together to turn them in.

I'm almost starting to feel as though my situation is being exaggerated a little bit. I mean...yeah he got what he wanted, but he knows how I feel and he noticed me getting depressed today. So he's being sensitive and nice and talking to me, asking if my best friend is moving up, and telling his friend to fill out as many applications as he can, preferably for night shifts, since that what we both work, maybe even Jack In The Box (fast food). His friend responded with asking what is open late night and not food because that's his only limitation. I almost yelled at him...a guy like him shouldn't have limitations. He doesn't even have his GED, and I see college kids working at McDonald's for Christ's sake.

I just don't feel like screwing over my love would be the right thing to do. I know, it's not what I want, and I've been kind of screwed over, but in his defense, I did say it was okay, at some point. I guess I was just more concerned about bigger things at the time. None of us can expect him to ever understand what I was going through.
I am willing to try it out with a bigger place, I'm just unhappy with the situation at hand. I don't understand why he couldn't save up money before coming up here, at least to lessen the amount of time shared in a single bedroom apartment. They might be comfortable with it, but I'm not.