Well I know what you mean. I love animals but have a slaughterhouse behind my home. I always say a prayer for them as the lorries roll in.I was veggie for some time, but when I was very ill in bed for 9 months with several broken vertebrea my Mother came to look after me. The Doctor told her that I would not heal without animal protein and began to give me meat again. I then got ME and the same advice was given, so I have never gone back to a veggie lifestyle.
You sound young Sofia. It's important not to judge people. Love and Light Deotima.