Re: 2nd day of my fast

I have been doing very well today with walking with my fast. I have been a bit down and I usually am when I am doing so. It is usually after day 3 or 4 that my emotions pick up as well.

My hard part is when I am reading, which I do alot. It is almost like I have taught myself if I am reading, I have to be eating too. So during lunch time, I was reading my book and just drinking water and drinking water.

Weekends are too hard for me, because I am usually working at my 2nd job.

My mother taught me to be an emotional eater. When she was upset, she would eat and when she was happy, she would eat. Eating is a very social thing and I believe I eat emotionally at times, beacuse I would rather be social with others when I am not and so I replace it with eating. I do snack a lot.

My fast is not to lose weight, which I know I will, but it is so more or less to move God's will in my life and to be more intune with Him as this time in my life. I need Him more right now then anything, so my fast is very very spiritual for me right now. I am only 5'1" so when I do gain weight it really loads on me with no place to go. It usually is in a spot that men seem to love if you know that I mean when my tops don't fit right when I gain weight. I am usually very tiny, but as of right now I am weighing only 135 lbs so I have to watch my fast, but then I know my body will stop losing weight and I will peak off at around 115 which is very normal for me. As I said before, weight is not an issue with me. I really really need this connection to God right now.

I know if I suceed in this fast it isn't because I have been able to do it alone. It is because He has helped me in the weak points in my life. Only when I am weak, is He strong.

Reading your quote of Matt 13:26 makes my heart jump with joy that someone else can see that. It also makes me smile that it was that extact quote was tape on top of my motar board when I graduated college, because I couldn't have done it without him.

I pray that you are able to do what you can to make your fast easier for you. It must be harder if you have a husband and children, which I do not have. LOL, I cleaned out my fridge yesterday and today I will be packing up all my fun goodies and give them to my friend's children to eat. So I understand in wanting all that stuff out of the house so you are not tempted.

Stick with it. you can do it. I will be cheering you on!! Rah RAH!!