Scarface, regarding drinking...

...we all know that alcohol is hard on the liver, but it never really hit home until a good friend of 25 years recently died from liver failure due to alcoholism at 52.

Some people who are drawn to alcohol and other recreational drugs have a seratonin deficiency. This can be tested now.

Have you tried natural seratonin, like l-tryptophan and 5-htp? I think you'll find they will help you cope with your illness very well, while helping lose the attraction to those drugs.