Re: First Loves, Youthful Passions, Then and Now...Stories?

My first major love was an addiction. He was all the things I thought I wanted. And it lasted for 10 years.

I was a freshman and he was a senior in college. He was the most popular guy on campus. He looked exactly like Hollywood Jesus, but was a bodybuilder and rode a Harley. All the girls wanted him, and he had many! But for some inexplicable reason he chose me. And we bonded as if we were one. He was also more mature, and virile and handsome and scholarly. He treated me like I was the only woman in the world.

5 years of relationship and then marriage. And boy, did that get ugly. It was intense, and it wasn't healthy. Have you ever heard the term, familiarity breeds contempt? I learned so much from my first love. All the things that he showed me, both good and bad.

If this relationship had ended without the closure of a bad marriage, I have no doubt that I'd be dreaming about him still to this day, instead of cringing when I do dream about him now.

Now I'm married to a man that you just described. But the passion is not the same. I will never, ever tell my husband this. This is one of my big secrets.

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