Work Meeting survival.

This is my first post, but I am lucky to have found you guys. I've been suffering for about 10 years, and my BO seems to change, get better, and get worse, a lot worse. I'm suffering everyday now. At first I thought is was an infection, I took a round of anti-biotics, it cleared up, but soon returned. I don't really want to unload a 10 history of suffering, I think everyone gets the drift. Where I am today is more horrible than when I was in college. Day in and Day out I stink really badly. Somedays I don't smell it, I can tell by everyone's reactions to me that I smell. Today was extremely difficult, I had a meeting at work, in which I left early to give everyone a break of me. I feel so sorry for the people that sit around and tolerate my smell. I hear the whispers, and see those telling looks, the grunts and moans, and the "Oh my Gosh", and "That's Her?" I really destroys your confidence, I don't I have any. But how do you survive those manditory meetings? When your odor flares up, and when there is a break, people move away from you. How do you survive the embarrassment?