I long to be on the stable shore

Well here's my story, i don't know whats wrong with me, I seem to have given up. I can't seem to force my self to go to school, i have a .5 gpa with 167 unexcused absences...it seems like my parents have given up on me, they don't even bother to check if im awake before they leave for their various jobs, not even a glance in my room. Every night i get the feeling that im all alone and i can't sleep. I have friends that I cruise with every day but it doesn't seem to help. I think thats its because I don't have a girlfriend, i mean its not that im ugly or anything its just that all the girls i meet all seem to slutty and unsuitable to be a girlfriend. I have lots of hookups but i never see any girlfriend potential in any of the girls. Its 1 a.m. right now and i don't know what im trying to accomplish by writing this, wht good could possibly come but o well it cant hurt