Re: My thoughts on my addiction

reading your thoughts has given me a bit of insight to my husbands gambling addiction. he recently left me because of this addiction. i should thank god, but this disease is so painful to the gambler and all that surround him. i will make myself crazy trying to figure out why he goes in these cycles you've mentioned. he just got out of a year of rehab and sober living due to gambling. i thought he was going to his meetings and doing his program. i trusted and loved him and wanted him well so badly that i ignored my inner feelings that something was going wrong. when he decided to pack his things while i was at work and move out i was shocked. he said he didn't love me anymore, and i was forcing "family life" on him. i later found out, by the bank statement he went to vegas that weekend and had been going to local casinos for the past year. this baffles me, when he was in program he seemed so happy with "family life." i tell myself he is not happy with himself, that is why he left. i hope he really gets honest with himself as he is still trying to deny a gambling problem. i on the other hand am trying to get myself back. i go to al anon meetings and am working out again. the support of the group is a lifesaver. i feel sorry for you and my husband as well, and hope you find the reason why you do what you do, and fix the problem so you don't hurt anybody else. Tweet