i understand what you are talking about, when i see two woman together holding hands, kissing, etc, im not envious of it but when i am physically attracted to women, i tend to fantasize about them and have the erge to want to kiss her, but i cant imagine myself being with a woman beyond my fantasy or i just dont have enough guts to do so, i love men without a doubt, i love the penis, i dont know if my sex life is not spiced up like it used to be before i was settled