i too had am like you. i had this start in high school but had only a few monthes till i graduated. It sucked so bad trying to hide it at high school walking down the halls. i know you have like 5 monthes left. Do your best to return to how you were and DO NOT try to heal your lips becuase they will not heal trust me. just do what you can to keep them from scabbing up im trying to save you alot of humiliation which i experienced. you can return to normal how you were so dont give up ever. i personally believe its in your mind and your daily regimen!