I have been skipping school a lot lately. As well as thoughts of suicide. I know it seems like a permanent and very drastic solution for a temporary and stupid problem, but It's just getting so damn old to deal with. I am just so sick of the feeling. It would be easier not to think about it all the time if it wasn't something that is the center of communication and smack dab in the middle of your face. I have to talk, and I have to smile sometimes. I try to put things into perspective and try not to be vain about this, but really it's been a curse. I feel like I have cancer and if i ever cure this I will be so grateful and not take things in life for granted. There are just so many things that could be going well right now that I am not doing and it's killing me. So stressful.