Re: lady sunshine

Soul Survivor - I am not married to him thank god.

I had restraining order in place, I was fighting for supervised access visits and I was in and out of court system for a year.
The whole thing was straining and stressful and took a lot out me and I could not deal with that and the passing of my sister at the same time and I crumbled (right back to him).I have left this guy many times but when I went back that last time it seems so much harder to leave, as I feel that I took 5 steps forward and fell apart and took 15 steps back by going back.

I have been kicking myself for this and have lost sleep over it (WHY) I should have stuck in there...

They say that life is a full circle. that history constantly repeats its self until you learn what it is that you need to learn and then that’s when you HAVE GOTTEN IT And that when you than can continue on with your journey for the next lesson..

So now I have to go back to the course I was on - I have to go back to court again, get a restraining order again, and get lawyer again, The only thing this time that is different is that have reached out to more resources. And know this time that there is no going back no matter what... (With gods help and by my side)

I have already looked into counseling and support group and they will begin in February as that is when it is available. As for now I am trying not to fall apart and not to fall back into that relationship. Taking it a day at a time...

Thanks Lady Sunshine




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