teenage raped when i was 5-6 seeking help

i was pschyologically and physically raped when i was 5 and 6 i've kept it to myself most of my life just in fear if people found out they would never look at me the same and this exstends to at times a complete singular focus on it as i try to explain ... i can live with it for most of my days but every few years i'll have a month or two where i just totally break down and it can last for a few months... i've told a few but it really doesn't help much... i've never really been able to tell people that were close the ones i told were acquaintances at most.. and recently its been bothering any social interaction i truly stray away from almost everyone but im comfortable around like 2 people it just seems like lately i can manage for like 2 months around people and htan i just can't take it i just htink there gonna find out that it happened to me and i just cease physical movement and i get so upset about it thats all i can think about everything pertaining to that and i just need help
and i also feel there should be a lesson taught on sex awareness the first day school starts at 5 years old to some exstent it would prevent a lot of travesties