Re: Near Death

. I remembered all the short instances of my life but the feeling, THE FEELING was that of complete calmness and breathing under water was amazing to me. I never left my body yet was so conscious of my body that I was shocked at the ease of it all. Tho the waves were crashing, all I experienced was peace, a cacaphony of silence if you will. I knew I was dying but there was no fear, no panic, just peace, and a knowing that there was something beyond this life that neccesitated no fear. I have never written about this before...."


You just described what happened to me years ago in my cousin's swimming pool! Somehow I got alot of water in my lungs after dunking under water, and instead of fighting to get up, I decided I would remain under water and die , because I felt very under-appreciated by my family. I was a depressed young girl who didnt' want to live anymore on this Earth.

I don't know how I didnt have any impulse to get up out of the water and gasp for air. As I intentionally forced myself to stay underwater, I began to feel this extreem peaceful feeling, as well as what you described-- like breathing under water. My lungs were being filled up with water, but I couldnt feel it.

I then heard an inner voice speak inside me asking me "Do you really want to do this to your family? I felt this was God, and I also felt that I was disobeying the Calling He had for me by intending to drown myself.

So after I felt convicted that I would actually be hurting my parents and sister if I did allow myself to stay under any longer and then leave my body permanently, I intentionally got up out of the water.

Needless to say, I spat up alot of water over the edge of the pool, and my sinuses burned in pain, but yet I didnt need to be resuscitated.

For curiosity, I tried to stay under water again later, to see if I could capture that same ability of "breathing under water" and that beautiful peace I felt, but I could not.

I think God permitted the situation as a teaching lesson for me. Tweet