trauma

hello george. i was hoping that you might be able to help me a bit with something. i have been trying to reach the source of a profound grief that i have been experiencing, well, for as long as i can remember. if i have had some kind of trauma in my life, i can not remember any specific abuse or event that might have caused this sorrow. i feel like i have a good relationship with my family and have had a pleasant life so far, not always easy but filled with a lot of love and support. i grew up feeling a bit shy and awkward at times, misunderstood but feel like have grown past that or am growing past it. i am now about 80 pounds overweight but am still active. i am an artist and i think of myself as a spiritual person. i am now trying to get at the root of my weight problem and i do know that i have a sugar addiction as well as unbalanced ph in the body. i have tried very hard to remedy this but i feel intuitively that there is more to it and that i might need to reach the 'heart of the matter' to truly help myself. i would appreciate if you could share your insight with me if there is anything that you think could help me. it has been years that i have been struggling with this...i am ready to face it and then move on.
thank you very much for your time.