Three agoraphobia videos.

Hi!,

I suffered 51 years of suicidal Depression because I grew up in a dysfunctional family that enjoyed resenting, mocking, ridiculing, and criticizing everything I did and said because I was "principled" (a holdout for justice, not punishment justice, right and wrong justice). Using me, they tried to redeem their conscience and ego so they could feel more comfortable about themselves.

It actually is a wonder why I never [FULLY] developed agoraphobia (although I did develop an inferiority complex, low self-esteem). Of course, being "principled", I was always arrogant in being who I was (since "spectators" resent that, they CALL/think of it as "stubborn" because it makes them look bad).

I recovered (basically) from my suicidal Depression about 2 years ago when I became the last living member of my family. I simply outlived my whole family and I am probably in perfect health (I don't really care if I am or not,...my recovery from being suicidal is more philosophical than "actual"). As far as justice and truth, this world/society leaves alot to be desired. The superficiality (shallowness), hypocrisy/betrayal of "life"/society and all of it's injustice (society's betrayal of itself) has never been attractive to me (and with my principles, it never will be), but what am I to do with life? Well, I've decided to just live it for....ME. "Selfish", yes (SELFish is GOOD/beneficial). Knowing one's SELF and establishing who you are is not only good, but it is the only true way a person can find fulfillment (Happiness) in this world. Aside from any pre-concieved notions about where we came from or what has ever been taught/understood about that (society's fanciful and foolish misunderstandings), the real name (forever) of the creator/origin is "I am who I am", Exodus 3:14). We are His offspring and the only way we can really be and feel satisfied in life is to also know and BE who we are. So, to a just degree, we MUST be SELFish (to a JUST degree, not disregarding the JUST/genuine rights of others). Many people will try to convince of THEIR "just" rights (be wise and just).

About This Video This is a silent short about a girl who has to ... (more)
Added: December 24, 2006
This is a silent short about a girl who has to make an important decision, a decision that may ultimately change her life.

This is PART TWO! (less)
Added: December 24, 2006



This video is only part 2 (I will find the rest later). I believe that all social "conditions" (society likes to THINK they are PERSONAL defects, after all, the way of the guilty is to displace responsibility, is it not?) are caused by "society" (and it's resentment of a just and profound person), not the individual that is simply "reacting" to society's injustice. I believe that before we were born (and even before we were in the womb), we lived with God as an "invisible soul" and that now we are simply "homesick" for justice, truth, and love (peaceful coexistence).

So, are all these things that society considers "undesirable"/unacceptable about us really "sicknesses"/diseases/disorders/syndromes, or are they really society's weaknesses being exposed and things that society can't hack?
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I found part 1 (notice the date, a DAY earlier, the beginning of exploration,...exploration=courage).

About This Video This is a silent short about a girl who has to ... (more)
Added: December 23, 2006
This is a silent short about a girl who has to make an important decision, a decision that may ultimately change her life.

This is PART ONE! (less)
Added: December 23, 2006



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This is her last video (one day after starting exploration, part 5)...HEALING.

About This Video This is a silent short about a girl who has to ... (more)
Added: December 24, 2006




"Physician, heal yourself" (Luke 4:23).