my sleep has been horrible lately even though I give myself more than adaquate time to be rested. I think I just point blank became extremely sensitive to caffeine in a type of tea I've been having almost every day for the past month. so last night I went to bed at one a.m. and had to be up by noon at the latest. my brain just wouldn't shut off. I dozed but it was like there was a big part of my brain that was saying "why am I still awake?" even if I probably was participating in one of the more shallow forms of sleep (though not full rem cycle.)

I finally fall asleep around 8:30 am.

I dreamt about...I wouldn't call him my sould mate but he was as close to a soul mate without actually being one. He was in love with me after first meeting me in the dream and I was resistent because I don't like it when guys fall in love with me after a really short time period-- or even exagerrate their feelings. It bugs me.

so I'm spending time with him, or with him and his son, and he's slowly wearing me down-- and he's spending a lot of money wooing me, and just being great and comfortable because he is setting aside time to spend with me. The dream was even better because it wasn't what I would consciously choose-- I wouldn't choose a man with a child, nor would I choose a man with his baggage, and we met somewhere where I would NEVER take a guy seriously. So it wasn't like-- "oh the violins and the flowers and the four course meals and the shopping and the walking on the beach in an exotic location." it had it's loopy dream moments but the imperfections made it perfect.

Unfortunately I woke up at noon because of my alarm and kept pushing the snooze til about 12:30 to keep the dream going. I spent most of the day in a funk because a) I hadn't had that great of sleep, and b) (and I've had this before when I dream about a male figure who I'm becoming perfectly romantically linked with) after I dream about a guy like that and I try to "find" him in the dream world again later on... I can't, and it makes me sad, because even though 85% of me understands the conscious and subconscious interplay of dreams, due to studying astral projection and believing in several different planes of existense from heaven to hell and beyond, 15% of me believes that this imperfect person that I was being synthesized with is REAL somewhere.

even now, seven hours later on I have a remaining tint of sadness.

can someone tell me how to go about "finding" someone who's been in a previous dream?
I may not be able to get it down in time to find Peter (I didn't get the name but after waking I named him Peter) but it might be useful for when it next happens.

Thanks.