I was so excited because I had everything under control. But all the sudden it has gotten difficult. I had lost 10 lbs and now I have gained 7 back.
And all the prepared food looks so good.

You might want to stop with your cleanse for a month and do something different.

I have tried to elimenate my Depression pills, but so far it still does not work.

I don't want to give up, so once in a while I do a wasteful day and eat everything in sight.
And start all over again.

I wish all of us to hang in there,
Johanna

I'm new to cleansing and new to this forum. I have a million questions and am reading all you lovely folks' posts in the archives. :-) I wanted to share something I've found that really helps with the emotions and past issues that began the negative feelings that i think would be helpful to those who are dealing with the toxin-related negative emotions. It's called Emotional Freedom Technique, a combination of acupressure and affirmations that I learned for free from the website at the end of my post. I used it to kill my cravings for sweets and chocolate, which I seriously doubted was possible to eliminate, and it is really simple. It's just tapping on certain meridian energy points while stating, "Even though I have this craving for lattes/chocolate chip cookies/whatever the craving, I deeply and completely accept myself," or "Even though I don't have any motivation left to do this cleanse, I deeply and completely accept myself." It can be used on ANYTHING, physical or emotional. My son used it for bedwetting successfully, and my daughter has used it successfully for test anxiety and homework anxiety. It is also useful for illness. I've seen pain just disappear both in myself and my kids and friends, and helped another friend who was in the midst of a panic attack bring the anxiety down far enough that she didn't fall apart. Even though I'm nearly 300 lbs and wanting very badly to get healthy and fit (which is why I'm here!!!), I was able to even change my body image to hating everything from the neck down and being totally disgusted and horrified at my appearance to actually literally looking at my naked bod in the mirror and feeling gratitude that I have a body as functional as it is, and capable of getting healthy. It's weird to look at myself and feel affection and appreciation instead of disgust and hatred. It was the one thing I didn't think EFT was going to touch. But it worked. And now I can accept myself as I am, recognize the weight as a separate thing from who I really am, and begin the long journey to health and wellness. I'm starting with my bowls, which is why I'm here.

I think there's a lot to the reality that our bodies store the negative experiences we have and respond accordingly. There's also a lot of reality to the theory that our negative experiences are also stored in our energy system(s) and clearing both will help to bring about healing even faster than focusing on just the physical or just the spiritual/energy whatever one wants to call it.

Anyway, thought I'd share my technique for eliminating cravings and other emotional issues that come up when we try to get healthy. I do have to tap daily and on each aspect of a craving at times, but it works. There's an article on EFT in a recent issue of the Journal of Clinical Psychology, and the website, below, has extensive case histories, info, and a free downloadable manual. It's pretty cool, actually. Now back to lurking and learning all the million things y'all know!!

evergreen

http://www.emofree.com

I agree - this is a difficult time of year. Here you are in a cleanse, and the symptoms of die off and the difficulties of the clenase seem to add to Depression - I am glad to read that your sticking to it has started to pay off with the gunk coming out - thanks so much for sharing, as I think you have been so vigilant and an example to others (like myself!). I agree with the seasonal aspects of Depression - affects so many, myself included.

Those lights are not that expensive and are really helpful. be certain to get one that is at least 10,000 Lux. Read the directions too - and as with a lot of things that are good for us - in moderation and regular use, helpful. A little goes a long way, but one can go overboard. Many hardware stores, or stores that sell lighting fixtures etc, have Happylite brand (by Virilux)- many are $125 or cheaper - they are more expensive online, I found.

Now that your cleanse is showing results - you may want to add the light - and the doc that was prescribing your antidepressants, talk to him/her about an Rx for the light and if you have insurance, it might be covered, as long as your Doc puts the "seasonal" specifier into your diagnosis.

Hope you are feeling better.

Madie

newdawnfades,
Splenda is another toxin. Get some stevia from the health food store. It is an herbal sweetner.

Blueduck