Hello, I am new to this website and am pretty over whelmed/ confused by it. if you are easily annoyed, angered, or have little patience, please dont read my post. I am a little slow and sensitive.

QUICK BACKGROUND INFO:
(all my life i was eating the standard american diet of highly processed acidic foods, hormone laden and gmo fed meat/ poultry/ dairy, high amounts of Sugar etc.
i was basically nutritionally deficient all my life, sadly.
However, the last vaccine i have ever gotten was when i was 11 or 12, because it was "mandatory" to enter middle school and my mother was extremely ignorant. since i was maybe 8 years old, i had been abusing Tylenol/ ibuprofen/ whatever the nurse would give me for whatever illness/ pain i was claiming to have.
embarrassed to admit but, i would take that crap everyday just to get out of class, which continued until i was 18..)
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last week of june 2012, was having flu like symptoms, vomiting, fainting, sensation of bones being on fire, extremely painful to move. (i was almost 19 years old at this time.)

first week of july; noticed a HUGE bullseye rash on my hip, went to my doctor, she refused to look at my rash and tried to tell me i was pregnant. (why would those symptoms indicate pregnancy???)

next day, went back saw another doctor, immediately showed her my rash, she said i had lyme, told me to take these huge blue pills for 30 days and not to skip any days, and i would be TOTALLY FINE.

took the pills for 30 days, felt fine for a while then my symptoms came back. I was fainting multiple times a month. having nightmares every night.

2013 i tried some OTC sleeping pills to stop my nightmares, it failed, obviously. then i started using cannabis before bed to stop my nightmares and it WORKED!

2014 i had horrible chest pain all year, sometimes it felt like an elephant was sitting on me, other times it felt like barbed wire was wrapped around something in the center of my chest along with someone stabbing me with a spear. experiencing some pretty bad memory problems.

August 2014 i went to the doctor again, she did an EKG, it was "normal" therefore apparently i was "making it up".

in october 2014 i decided to take a different approach to healing myself, i became vegetarian. in febuary 2015 i went vegan and stopped eating sugar. the chest pain stopped for a while. but it came back. i havent fainted since may 2015. memory problems still happening, feeling very stupid, not 'sharp' or 'quick' like i used to be.

^^ around this time i also did a parasite cleanse which didnt really do anything? maybe i did it wrong, but nothing ever came out..

after years of searching the internet trying to figure what my issues were caused by, i stumbled across a blog or a forum, in june 2015, where a woman was having the same exact symptoms and problems i was having, she had lyme. after further investigating this lead i came to the conclusion i could and probably do still have lyme.

in july 2015 i began using a rife machine as suggested by someone i know IRL who also has lyme. i do it twice a week. sometimes i feel tired a few days later, sometimes i dont.my memory/ brain fog seems to be improving, also general happiness has increased and mood swings and related problems had decreased.

end of august 2015, ive started also taking teasel root in the mornings. it makes me feel happy for a little bit after i ingest it. still using cannabis, if i go to bed without it i have nightmares. every. single. time.

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So, knowing some details of whats been going on, id like to discuss some things. (obviously i will research any suggestions you may have, i am somewhat desperate for relief from certain symptoms but i am not desperate enough to do something without looking into it myself.) no worries, all suggestions are highly appreciated!

firstly, how do you know if youre herxing..? i have tried countless times to understand what it is and what it feels like, but i still just dont understand. youre body is being overloaded with toxins, right? so what exactly does that feel like..? everyone makes it seem like youd be on the floor puking? but i feel like this isnt the case? do you need to herx to know the treatment is working..?

secondly, since cannabis is illegal, it is hard to find once i run out. what other natural substances can i take to relax enough to fall asleep and not have any nightmares?

(last night i went to bed without using cannabis and i hardly slept at all, had numerous nightmares, and eventually when i got up at 8:30AM, i wasnt tired at ALL but i felt like i was hit by a bus and was psychologically tortured by guberment officals. my body is not resting and that is an enormous issue for me.)

i was briefly reading about "herbal smoking blends" but was discouraged by warnings of synthetic ingredients. I eat organic and non gmo, so i do not want to smoke synthetic stuff either. id rather eat or put stuff in my water instead of smoking but i really dislike the taste of tea. i have tried so many different kinds since i would really like to enjoy tea, but they just arent my thing.


third, i was talking to a woman who had lyme so bad her fingers were extremely disfigured and not movable. she can move them now but cannot make a fist. she seems to believe my chest pain could be heat related. i have noticed when it is really hot, my chest hurts most of the day until the night time. it also hurt if i exercise or get angry or upset. any suggestions or information about this?
***it is difficult for me to read large blocks of text so please space out your response***

id like to also add that i am still eating vegan, but i am doing so with a macrobiotic approach/ eating seasonally, organic, local when i can, high in veggies, low in fruit,
lots of brown rice and beans. never flour, limited sugar.
absolutely no corn. sometimes soy, like for miso soup. moderate amounts of Extra-Virgin Olive-Oil and apple cider vinegar daily.

please point me in the right direction for any of these problems! person experiences or links to other people experiences are always welcome.

i also have some skin conditions which may or may not be related to lyme such as eczema and random hives. i do not use soap in the shower anymore, sometimes i use baking soda, my water is highly chlorinated, i use a berkey water filter for drinking, and i use borax to wash my clothes. i am very itchy on my arms all the time too

(and no, i cannot get a blood test. im in the middle of some insurance issues and am also very poor.)

thank you for reading, i tried to give as much useful information as possible because it seems like little things can acutally cause big problems. sorry if it is jumbled and messy, just imagine what the inside of my head looks like haha

i am also sorry if i have accidentally broken any rules, i did not intentionally do anything wrong. please move or delete if you deem necessary