I know how you feel!! I actually felt the same way too... But three years ago, someone told me that suicide is a stupid way out. It funny when i think back at it now because how stupid i was thinking about how my life sucks due to this nasty odor and dealing with social anxiety that left me with the lack of social skills, plus my low self esteem, and being treated unfairly by people, how no one cared about me, the feeling of hopelessness and self-hatred I felt every single day for i don't know how long. But This girl that told me this, was actually someone who been through so much trauma in her life than I'd have ever gone through, EVER. She was abused, taken advantage of by many people, raped, abandoned, lost, confused, addicted to drugs, a run away, AND alone, but despite all that, she wanted to continue on with her life. And She inspired me to continue on with mines!! This girl, Although, I didn't know it at the time, became someone real special to me. I found it funny, that she also felt self-conscious of the way she smelled and she smells nice if you ask me. Well anyways, I hope this helps you too, because i know how difficult it is living like this. But, please don't let this Depression or this odor take the best of you.

Good luck for now!!

I tried suicide a few years ago, did not really help. Just try your best and you can totally do it. Only you can control your destiny, not your mom.

Hi there - You need strong probiotics!!! This will fix your Body Odor issue and your mood and thoughts of suicide. A cleanse would help I am sure. A paleo diet would be huge too but probiotics will be a good place to start. There is no need to suffer and the cure for me was stupidly simple. I did paleo for a year and was feeling pretty good and I was not nearly 100%. A couple months ago I started taking a strong probiotic for an infection I had in my uterus. After about 10 days I was like hmm I am feeling very focused and happy. It just kept getting better and better. Have you taken Antibiotics for anything in the past?? If so know that some types kill the good bacteria. You need good bacteria for everything in your body. It makes neurotransmitter, b12, vit k, vit d, etc etc etc. Read the GAPS diet. Need to be on probiotics for a minimum of 6 months. I started with a NATREN brand 2 times a day.

dont kill yourself we may smell bad but at least we're not walking stds.

I quit my job. I've been staying at home for the past 4 months without a job. I was supp to go to film school since I cleared the admission. I didn't. My dad doesn't understand and has asked me to leave home. I have no money currently. He says I'm lying. That I have no odor which he can smell and am just manipulating him. But suicide is not an option. There has to be a cure. The road may be tough. It may take long. But giving up is not an option and you better understand that. I will not give up and will not let with this problem give up. PM me if you want to talk.

Hi ToNoAvail,

I don't know if this is Dr. Wayne Dyer's quote or whether he was quoting someone else when he said it, but he said, "When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change". When you see your life as you just described, you will find supportive evidence everywhere. For example, my daughter wanted to dye her hair blue. I said no to the dye, but I said she could put a blue piece in. She did. She was very self-conscious about it. Everywhere we went that first day, people were staring, whispering to each other, etc. One little girl, she was so cute though, said "Grandma, I just saw a girl with blue hair", just as she passed us. No judgment, just noticed. So I told her when we got home, I can take it out if you want, but you should always be yourself and live life on your terms. If someone doesn't like your hair, that is their problem; do you. She decided to keep it. The very next day, we went to a store and a salesclerk told her she was a boss with her blue hair. She hasn't look back sense. Now, we go out all the time. Her hair is always blue and we get very few stares and virtually no comments.

What if you changed the way you saw your life? What if the guy your mom knows is the most wonderful person you will ever meet? What if he is your soul mate? What if your mom doesn't want to push someone on you rather she just wants to introduce you to someone that would make you a good husband and will let you make your own decision? What if you had already decided that you will make your own decision as to who you will marry? What if you find the answer for this Body Odor issue and you meet someone at school whom your mom would love for you to marry? How would your life be different?

Forever the optimist, I always think that if I kill myself today, tomorrow will be the day that my Body Odor disappears on its own. Tomorrow will be the day I win the lottery (I don't even play, but I still think it). Tomorrow will be the day I will meet my soul mate. Tomorrow I will be dead when all these great things are about to happen. So I make sure I always stick around. I never know when my luck is going to turn.

I hope that it was just a bad day. We all have them. I hope you reconsidered and are feeling better today.

I wish you all the best. Take care of yourself,

Win

The situation seems to be serious however there may be surprisingly easy solution by Su-jok acupuncture. The scheme in energies:

[mental energies]--->Ne (ideas)--->He (desire)--->No (termination of life): No tone up (termination of this - hitting the problem by it's own weapon).

In case of really desperate suicide attempts for drug addicts such simple solution may do "miracle" in matter of minutes.
The idea is to add a fundamental lacking energy on mental/emotional level, the lack of which caused the addiction.

Also, your other symptoms match Depression which has separate scheme to treat. The treatment can be done as self-treatment using NATURAL crystals - glass also works but much less efficient. So if interested, please contact.

Oooooooh I care. I felt this way and my husband put me in a mental ward for a weekend....I wanted to leave so bad...I had to find ways to cope...
I have not totally overcome the anxiety but the Depression us rare...I don't get depressed that often.