Well lets be specific. I have been sick my whole life. My story is just an amalgation of the 1000's on curezone, yahoo, youtube and elsewhere.

I think in 4.5 years, I have spent 5000 hours + studying alternative health and sport science, cultural and nutritional anthropology, and nutrition.

You would think I'd be a successful business man with this kind of knowledge by now!

Alas, these systems do suggest that I might be celiac (but never could get the tests, and just can't do so yet, it has to wait till I have more certainty over money, and the other health issues).


I definitely have some kind of metal poisoning. Since I talked about poisoning myself with ALA and other supplements 2 years ago.

I did get the rotten Amalgam cavitated dead crater of a tooth out of my head finally 2 months ago.

I am taking about 100 diff supplements. I am not rich. I just saved up them all over 2 years. Bought with loan money. Oh joy. And now I take them. A good green powder drink might I add on Iherb. Has different chlorella/wheat grass/countless things.

But these days I do not post much or involve myself in the alternative health community. I listen to Gary Null some, I listen to Joe Rogan more.

But I just haven't studied biology much. A year ago, I intensely studied Chinese medicine, and chronic diseases. I am just totally fascinated in chronic environmental disease, sustainability, industrial agriculture, and pollutants, and terrified.

Well I do listen to Robert Scott Bell and Daniel Vitalis.

But it isn't the same. I know in the last year, my ability to study mathy Science stuff has dwindled. I find myself just constantly studying politics and economics. Overwhelmed with shame about flunking out of college, and just repeatedly dealing with stereotypical social dysfunction that is rampant in kids my age (23) with these stupid aweful environmental diseases and psychiatric conditions. You get callous after listening to several thousand peoples stories.

And I worry about my future financially, since I might default on my loan, but I cannot say for certain. But for whatever reason, probably from listening to podcasts, I began to stop studying material biochemical science.

I started asking myself culturally, politically, psychologically what could fuel such a degree of mental illness in people. Finding a lot of answers, and it is all quite scarey.

What it suggests, is that without some sort of intervening group of people to convince a person to think and view and see life positively, the mind becomes dark. People become trained to think negatively, then somehow get stuck in it.

And yet... mercury poisoning is very real.

I thought If I took a dose of ALA , my head would explode.

Well surprise, I take about 80 mg every 3 hours for 6 days now. I feel brain fog to hell, not necessarily more so than on any given day, but so consistently so that I suspect I am detoxing some. It is possible. But with a requirement of perhaps 100 rounds. I have read that you may notice nothing the first 3 months.

I will need to get EDTA, microsilica, charcoal, and more bentonite, and zeolite which I do have some of still yet.

So good news is, I am not a low dose ALA guy. A reasonable dose is not killing me.

But this is the hardest time. I told some of my family even. I said that I have to see if this is true, if this works, if this is going to establish a trend of healing over a 3 month period I can identify and notice.

If I know I am getting better, than it wont be hard to follow through another 9 months. But that first part of convincing yourself it is all working is the scariest part.

I am wondering if I can just take ALA for like 3 weeks in a row, I mean I am not sure how much you can get away with.

I just do have in the back of my mind the possibility that I would be taking it for months, with no noticed improvement, even with cutler's protocol.

It is easy to do things wrong.

Now is an important time to be ultra-scientific, ultra- attentive. I need to see some results.