I am still badly affected by my rape and its been over 10 years.

I was 39 at the time and with my first wife. I had been out with friends and was walking home alone. It was not even dark and I was walking back down a public footpath that used to be a railway line. It was a nature park now, just outside the city. I was getting near to a area where 2 road bridges pass over the valley. There was about 6 teenager hanging about under the bridge and I could see they had a small fire going and were spray paining under the bridge.

I was a confident guy back then over 6 ft tall and used to go the they gym, though I could take care of myself, and as I was drunk I thought nothing about it. I got near them as started to pass under the bridge - I could see cans of beer everywhere.

One boy asked me the time - I stopped and looked at my watch. That was a decision I regret to this day. When I stopped they surrounded me and started saying they liked my watch - and to give them it, and my phone and wallet. I told them to **** off and then I saw 2 had knifes and they told me again to give them my stuff. I was reaching into the back pocket of my levis to get my wallet out when one boy suddenly kneed me in the balls. I bent over in pain and they kicked my to the ground.

Next thing I know they are all over me. one sitting on my back and one over my neck and one on my legs. I can not get them off and they are punching me and kicking me. Yelling at be to keep still. I hear one boy say "here tie the **** up with this, and I see him throw some old orange plastic rope over to the ones on top of me.

I try to struggle, but one lad nearly knocked me out when he kicked me in the face. I felt them binding my wrist behind my back.

They then took off my belt and tied my ankles together with it. After that they robbed me of my watch, chain, wallet and shoes. I thought they would let me go. I was saying they were crazy and to untie me.

Then the same lad that told them to tie me up ordered me to shut up and he took off my own socks as they all laughed as he gagged me with them.

Now I was scared. I felt helpless. They dragged me into the shadows into a large recess in the wall of the bridge. It was dark and smelled of urine.

Over the next hour they took turns torturing me. They urinated over me, kicked me, punched me, spat on me. The most terrifying part was when one put a plastic shopping bag over my head and they started to sufercate me. I really though I was going to die. I was so scared I even urinated in my pants - which they all thought was so funny.

then I heard someone say that someone was coming. I looked and could see an old man walking his dog coming towards the bridge. I yelled into the gag, but one lad put his hand over my gagged mouth and held the knife to my neck saying to keep quite or he would slice me neck open.

They threw a few old boxes and rubbish over me, as the guy walked past his dog was barking at me and the man looked at me at slowed down.

one boy yelled "what the """" you looking at granddad" They were standing in front of me to he could not get a good view. I tried yelling into the gag again. One boy told the guy I was their mate and I just had too much to drink. He waked away! I was crying.

They were angry with me for making a noise, and they give me another kicking after blindfolding me with a dirty rag, they then started burning my with their cigarette butts.

Eventually they got bored with me. They stayed drinking and taking for some time, then they left, one lad giving me one last kick and saying "see you round". I listened to them leaving.

I struggled to free myself, but they had tied me so tight. I could not feel my hands as they were numb. Even the gag was too tight to push out my mouth.

After a long time I could hear someone waking on the gravel towards me. I started struggling and yelling for help under the gag. I though someone was going to save me.

I heard the footsteps stop next to me, I heard a man ask me if I was OK and what happened. I mumbled into the gag. I felt so relived someone was there to help me.

the mans hands untied the gag, I spat out the sock. I told him I was robbed and asked him to help me get untied.

I rolled onto my stomach and felt his hands on my tied wrists. He was tugging at the rope.

He said that they got me tied up real tight and he could not undo the knots. I asked him to take of my blindfold.

He just kept trying the rope. I was getting impatient and told him to hurry and get off my blindfold. He sounded angry and told me to calm down - and then - he said that "no wonder they had to gag you - I'll gag you again if you don't stop complaining" he pulled off my blindfold. Then my heart sank.

It was one of the boys from the gag.

I told him to untie me now. They had their fun,.. I got no more money.......He told me to shut my mouth he was going to have to gag me again!

I pleaded with him not to , asked why? said I would not go to the police. promised I would not tell anyone. But he forced the gag back into my mouth.

Then he stated feeling me up and down and his hand was in his pants - playing with himself. Said I looked sexy. loved my tight levis ....

I felt sick. I struggled wildly, but he lay on top of me with the plastic bag and told me to stop or he would suforcate me. I stopped.

He then unfastened my jeans, pulled them down to my knees, I was wearing silk boxer shorts and he started stroking my ass over them. Then he got on top of my and started humping me.

Said he like me - a big strong man all tied up. then he slid my shorts down and raped me. It was horrible, I screamed into the gag, but his had was over my mouth so no one could hear. My own penis got hard under me - I don't know why - I was not enjoying it, I was freaking out.

It seemed to last for hours, so painful. I felt the rope around my wrist cutting into my skin and the sharp gravel under me. Finally he finished and pulled up my shorts and levis. He saw my stiff penis and took several photos of it on his phone, with his hand holding it.

I felt so humiliated and helpless. I was sobbing like a baby. He told me he would put the photos on the internet if I told anyone what had happened. Then he loosened the rope around my wrist and ran off.

I lay there crying for a long time, and then struggled free of the ropes and took out my gag and the belt from my ankles.

I walked home and took a long hot shower - my wife was asleep in bed.

I threw away all my clothes and in the morning my wife saw how beat up I was. I just made up a story about getting mugged and I did not want to go to the police. I never told anyone the true story until now.