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keason
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Hi Tracey-
I feel kinda guilty asking another question when you gave me so much of your time and attention over in the Dreams Forum . If you don't have time to take a look, I will completely understand.
In addition to all this 'brain surgery' in my life re:career and all, there is major stuff going on with relationships, too. Namely- my ex just came back into my life. This relationship was incredibly painful for me, and totally karmic.
Basically she was my father in a different package!
I'm just starting to feel healed of the whole thing- that I might survive after all- and wham! We're talking again- not in any way about getting back together, just about the possibility of attempting a friendship.
One big thing I learned from it (more mental transformation) is that this love thing gets all screwed up with ideas about what we think we need from people, or how we need them to be, but of course love is really just simple and basic. So I don't know if my new belief system is now going to be tested or what!
I guess I'd like to know more about this connection I have to her- honestly I have been in love before but this person feels so damn connected and important. I don't think a day went by these past 2 years that I didn't think about her and miss her.
Sooo- I'm San Diego, 10/21/68 6:06pm, she's San Jose, 4/3/77 time unknown.
Any thoughts appreciated.
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- Keason Tracey
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Tracy Tracy Tracy....I just LOVE you! I wish I could just move you in with me!! If I were rich....I'd invite you to come live in my manchion! LOL Then hopefully you can keep me up to date with what is happening in my life...good or bad...at least I can prepare! LOL
Well...I surely hope your right...but even if your not..it sure was fun, uplifting, and inspiring to read. Made me feel better. I am experiencing HIGH anxiety with the up coming surgery so I really hope I make it through ok. I have to be awake for the surgery cuz I am allergic to anesthesia so this will really be quite the challenge. My hubby will be in with me helping to keep me calm...if that is possible.
i will definately keep you posted and let you know how the surgery goes. I'm scheduled for 9:45 am on Monday.
Thank you so very much for all your support, and love. It really really means a lot to me.
I hope that good fortune comes to me soon and lasts for a while. Usually when something good happens to me...it is followed by a TON of bad things. So I'm a bit scared. But we'll see. :)
Love!
MOM- Re: Keason Tracey
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This is a reply to # 139,717Ha! Ah...I thought maybe you were...but I was too lazy to go back over our correspondence for the clues that you were female!
It's late...I should have some time tomorrow to check on your charts...
love T
- Re: Keason keason
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This is a reply to # 139,718No problem- and no rush.
I'm just finding more transformative stuff going
on with my relationships (of all kinds)-
and how I approach them, what I want from them, etc.
Good stuff, but my, this is a bit of an exhausting
and overwhelming time for me.
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Hi Keason!
So...this is interesting - when you said that your ex-girlfriend was your Father only in a different package I thought: okay, where's Keason's Saturn? (Authority/Father figure) Because I thought that perhaps your ex's Sun would be in your Saturn's sign...And it is!
Your Saturn is in Aries and your ex is an Aries!
So...if you take a look at your chart you'll see your Sun in opposition to your Saturn. (both the Sun and Saturn are representative of father energy) This can mean that in relationship (oppositions represent how you are in relationships) you look for an 'other' that has this same sort of 'authority' as your Father....but, really, it is the 'authority' within yourself.
So, along comes your ex with an Aries Sun and her Sun sits opposite your Sun and conjunct your Saturn...you know her well and your father...so you know what this energy feels like. You're right that it's karmic (saturn represents past life karmic stuff, current life lessons...and your saturn in the 12th house is showing that you have some 'unfinished' business left over from a past life that you need to deal with in this one...) - because this is taking place in the sign of Aries - it would suggest that you and your ex were possibly Warriors together! Because your ex has Pluto opposing her Sun and your Saturn it would suggest that it was SHE that had the Power (powerful warrior of some sort) - but it was YOU that had the Authority (restrictive energy) - and that it is this clash of your two powers that needed to be worked out in this lifetime. Were or are you able to turn this selfish-war-independent-action-oriented energy into Harmony? Harmonious sharing, relating, beauty-oriented energy? Perhaps that is what is going to happen now? hmmmmmm...
It's interesting, too, that both of your North Nodes (where your soul wants to go in this lifetime) are next to the other's Sun!!! Trippy! So, truly, you were meant to meet in this lifetime for sure - and most likely you will have future-lives together, too. It's not over! It feels like the two of your souls are good friends intent on learning some challenging and rewarding lessons together...through many lives past, present and future...
Your composite charts together mirror the Saturnian karmic stuff too - as, together, the two of you are Capricorn! (Capricorn Sun conjunct North Node)...so, again, that shows that the two of you were serious about learning life lessons together...and into future lives as well! It's not a light, fluffy learning - it's pretty serious...but that resonates with both of you...
If you check out your composite chart...your composite Saturn is DIRECTLY opposite your composite Mars! (mars=aries and saturn=past life lessons and challenges) So, again, the composite chart mirrors what your charts say singly and in synastry. Your energies are battling one another...in order to learn something you need to learn in this lifetime.
Your ex certainly fits the bill of someone that you were meant to meet for some serious learning...but she's not your Ideal. I don't know what time she was born so maybe she DOES have a lot of planets in the 9th house...but with your Venus in Sagittarius (I have that too!) you really value and like people that are philosophical, idealistic, have big ideas, are adventurous consciously OR in the real world, are into growth and expanding their consciousness, like to travel to foreign lands (foreign lands of the mind or other real physical countries)...and she doesn't SEEM to have much of that. (unless as I said the time she was born makes a lot of her planets fall into the 9th house -Jupiterian/Sagittarian house)
Also...you need someone who has a healthy Venus - your ex, although she springs from a spot of Love (she has Venus next to her Sun)....there's power mixed in with that...even though she could turn that into the Power of Love...)
So..that's all for now...I hope some of that resonated!
love Tracey
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- (Tracey) Yowza! keason
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Thanks Tracey,
I am SOOO ready to drop all my other interests and seriously study astrology! It's amazing how much this resonates- the
power/authority struggle, the feeling that there is a deep undercurrent between us, the strong desire to turn that intense energy into harmonious sharing, relating, beauty-oriented energy.
Because she is non-communicative (drives me MAD!) I always wondered if it was only me that felt the connection, even though I suspect that she must have some awareness of it. Based on what you wrote, I'd guess she must feel it too.
As for the "ideal" there is a part of me that certainly wishes for this. I will say that she studies foreign languages, travels abroad (she is a muscician and travels alot), and has lived abroad, so it may be that she has 9th house activity (am I right about that connection?). But you hit the nail on the head when you said she could transform her love/power struggles into the power of love- this more than ANYTHING is what I wish for her, and wish to be a part of, although thankfully I gave up trying to do it for her or push her in that direction....this was also how I felt about my father- I wanted him to see how love could transform his world if he would only loosen his grip on it just a bit.
That I need 'healthy Venus energy' also ties in with a big thing I've learned- as I was saying in another post- that I no longer care so much about all the trappings of looks, brains, etc. I want someone who is emotionally open and treats me lovingly and affectionately - which is NOT what I was getting in this previous relationship, although I wanted it from her most of all. In all honestly, I still do want that from her, but I'll take it on a friendship level if possible.
Also- wondering about something. This new desire I have for emotionally open people in my life....it is a direct result of the personal growth I've gone through in which I'm letting go of my fear-based mode of relating to people. At the same time, there seems to be some opening up of the people around me. I'm curious if people are responding to MY opening up, or if there is a greater cosmic thing going on, where people are letting go of some of those fear-based defense mechanisms? Maybe the Venus transit?
Oh, I have SO much to learn! That always excites me!!
Thanks SO MUCH again for taking a look at this,
do you do chart interpretations for money?
You're very good at it!!
- Yowza! Yay! Tracey
20 y
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Hi Keason!
Oooh I'm so glad it resonated and made you want to study astrology! That's the way I felt after my first astrology reading...whew.
Nope, I don't do it for money - I tried, but I found it tooo stressful (!?) and now I just like doing it like this, casually, for friends, family, and you guys! (thanks for the compliment...)
So, yes, you are absolutely right...your ex probably DOES have a bunch of planets in the 9th house, by the sounds of it - it would be cool to find out for sure!
You say: ...where people are letting go of some of those fear-based defense mechanisms? Maybe the Venus transit?
Well..did you read that we are just finishing up a HUGE Letting Go year, too?? Yes yes yes! I finally figured out a second recurring dream I've been having for 9 years...just yesterday...and it, of course, is all about letting go...wow. Sooo many people I know are doing some super-crazy letting go right now...just in time for the next Mayan year of Blue Crystal Storm (super-crazy transformation! eeek). Anyway, I posted info on that somewhere...oh yeah, I'll link to it below. (the Red serpent/blue storm post below it talks more about it too)
But, also, I do believe that the Venus/Pluto transit has alot to do with that too....and I don't think it's a coincidence that the Venus/Pluto transit happened at the end of the letting go year just in time for the Transformation (pluto) year, either!
We are all doing some intense changing these days....it's sooo exciting! So, yes, you're changing AND others around you are changing...of course we all help each other to change, too, energetically...
okay...I see another post from you...
love T
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- Yowza! Yay! Tracey
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- P.S. By the way, where is my IDEAL?! keason
20 y
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Ha! I'm sure this is the #1 question you get!
Is there any way to tell from a chart whether or not
the person will connect with their ideal/ soul companion
in this lifetime?? Mine is hiding! :)- Re: P.S. By the way, where is my IDE... Tracey
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This is a reply to # 139,728Keason,
Yeah, that's the million dollar question isn't it!
To me, your chart looks like one of your main tasks in this lifetime is to have relationships that you can learn from...it's all about relationships and life lessons surrounding relationships, sharing, harmony, individuality, independence, co-dependence...the whole axis of Relationship vs Individual...learning to integrate those two.
Hmmm...it's interesting, because there is SUCH a big focus on your Saturn in Aries in the 12th house...especially because your MidHeaven (the top of your chart and your Life Objective/Calling) is ruled by Capricorn - which points to Saturn...so, this backs up the idea that you're here to finish up unfinished business from previous lives that involves Selfishness vs Relating...do you or have you had any dreams/nightmares about blows to the head? That sort of thing? Don't know - just wondering...
(How did we get so far away from the topic of Ideal Love! ha! sorry about that...but this must be tied in!)
Hmmm..You have a healthy venus/mars connection within your chart and a fine Relationship house that Neptune resides in - so you can very well find your Ideal...this person will be truly plugged in spiritually, musically, poetically. See Neptune in the 7th house can make you blind to someone's faults too...it can be deluded (oh we all have a Neptune somewhere!)...and make you think the person is PERFECT...or make you want to help them (alcoholics, drug addicts etc! Not something a Libra, typically, would go for at all, though!)....but if your Neptune is healthy then it will bring you a spiritually aware, connected person. It's funny, but before I saw Neptune there I was looking at your North Node in the 12th house and it's clear that when YOU make that great leap into being totally plugged in to your higher self (take action mars/aries - towards your own spirituality, intuition, one-self etc) then the 'other' person will show up...
Makes sense...and it sounds like you are really growing rapidly right now Keason...that is sooooo cool! Keep on opening....and dissolving that fear...
love Tracey
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