I never meant to open up such a can of worms when I announced that I felt the need to take a prolonged break from Curezone a few days ago. At the time I was pretty emotional and probably did not explain myself very well. There are some things going on that I hate. I dislike all the petty bickering and name calling. I hate that so many forum owners are bashing other protocols, often without ever trying them. Barefoot bashes Vitamin C, Urine Therapy, Iodine (except his brand) and Oil Pulling; Moreless puts down almost everything that is not part of his protocol including Iodine and Miracle-Mineral-Supplement . The Iodine people diss Miracle-Mineral-Supplement . I really wish forum owners would stick to their own specialty and allow people the freedom to make their own choices.

All that said, the fact is that I love Curezone. All the information I gained here has probably saved my life. It has certainly helped get me off all prescription medicines, several I was told I would need the rest of my life. I love the idea of people with common interests being able to reach out and communicate with like minded people. While I do grow tired of posts that communicate with cut and paste articles or YouTube links, instead of the original words, thoughts, experiences and opinions of posters, at least there is the freedom to communicate. I guess what happened to me was I got too attached to Curezone and react too emotionally when problems arise.

I am in the midst of another severe inflammatory episode. The pain is beyond description. A few days ago my boss patted me on the shoulder, I nearly screamed. He thought he had scared me, the fact was he unknowingly hurt me-badly. The same thing happened when a friend, a big gentle bear of a man rubbed my neck, it felt like flames going down my spine. I am so weak, I literally have to fall out of my car and crawl into the house. One day I was hurting so badly, so terribly weak and discouraged, I found myself repeating to myself the things that I had been called on Curezone-loser, sick and diseased, useless. I cannot allow these opinions others have of me to become a permanent part of my consciousness. Its hard enough to fight discouragement and Depression without having the voices of Moreless and Celcius joining in.

I thought I would log on to Curezone to get a diversion. After going to several forums all I saw was negativity, name calling, bashing and other poor behavior. My heart was racing, my chest hurt, the pain was even worse, and my blood pressure shot up. The terrible thing was Curezone was making me sicker. I intend to continue logging on to Moderate "my" two forums and to read on a forum that is of particular interest. I do feel the need to stop reading and responding in forums where there is so much negativity and debate; I may need to permanently quit the privately owned forums altogether since these tend to be the most negative and egocentric. I accept the fact that owners have the freedom to say and promote anything they wish, that they are, according to the Webmaster, "gods" in their own forums. However, I also hold fast to the freedom to ignore places where unpleasantness and negativity are predominate.

I am not mad at anyone, I don't want anyone banned, I don't really hold out much hope things will change around here. I have to divorce myself from the emotional attachment to Curezone and just use it as a tool and place of learning. The problem I have is mine. While there is a great deal of room for improvement on Curezone; especially when it comes to treating others with respect and dignity whether one agrees with them or not, this is still a phenomenal site. It has been a privilege and a gift to be a part of it. I just allowed myself to get too involved and care too much. Please-be kind to one-another and practice peace no matter what else you choose to do here.