I'll adress the emotional aspect, I'm getting quite experienced there...
You are IN TUNE with your body and your mind. You are seeing the emotional changes, recognizing that your mind-state is not rational or based in reality....when I say "reality", I'm talking about the reality that exists in interpersonal relationships, the reality that allows for other worldviews, others' experiences, others' emotions. A SHARED reality(if there is such a thing).
The reasons for your emotionality ARE, however based in a reality. They're based in the reality that is your inner life. Everything that you have reacted to, everything that you have experienced, all of the un-justness you've suffered....and not processed properly.
I hope that this doesn't sound like gobbledygook. I am no psychoanalyst...
body/mind. All one. Toxic body/toxic mind.
Detox body = zits, colored pee, aches, pains, constipation, diarrhea ad nauseum...
Detox mind = depression, paranoia, emotionality, panic, fear ad nauseum....
You know I just went through this, BIG time. It was really helpful, to me, to really examine my life and lay it all out.
It's easier for us to understand the physical aspect of dis-ease. It's REAL. it's VISIBLE.
These changes are part of the healing process. At least you are in-tune with your emotional state and recognize that these thoughts/feelings are not "right". I can't say that the same has been true of me....and I don't think I'm *done*. Next time, though, I will make myself a nest of fallen leaves, curl up and hide.
Dolls, you're one of the most generous around. We are blessed to have you here. You are beautiful in your bravery, your joy and your sadness. This is you, the wounded healer:
http://www.crystalinks.com/woundedhealer2.html
"It is the person who has gone through suffering, sometimes great, and as a result of that process has become a source of great wisdom, healing power and inspiration for others. In fact, the archetypal wounded healer undergoes a transformation as a result of their wound, their suffering and pain. They can actually transcend it, and successfully lead themselves to a path of service. It is as if the wound itself helps you drive yourself to an inner journey that becomes the transformation itself. One strips away the selfish, ego-based feeling of being all alone in our wound and expands to see others and how if one chooses a different role, one can help."
you are not alone...