Day 11 juicing
Date: 6/21/2007 7:21:26 AM ( 15 y ) ... viewed 2560 times
I'm so over this... i haven't lost anything now for 2 days.. my body seems to be stalling. I would do the water fast but I"M STARVING!!! I'm get winded so fast that I'm concerned something about my fasting isn't right. I don't feel cleansing.. I feel starved.. this doesnt 'feel healthy.. it feels like an eating disorder. If i was gong through head aches, and zits, and weird smells, and rollar coaster of emotions and weight loss and all these things you hear happens during fasting, then I'd think this was working..but at this point I think my body is just thinking this is a nother diet and its holding on to eerything.. I'm not sure what to do... i have alot of anger that is in the pit of my stomach and i'm not sure why. i'm not sure if i'm angry at myself for doing this (if that is the case then i'm thinking about this wrong inernally) or if its anger that is surfacing becuase i have more time to think about things. I'll admit that my mind is constantly on finances and weight loss and a little bit of work.. i'm just so angry... its weird.. prehaps i'm angry that i'm not losing hte weight htat i want to be. I'm on day 11, and I'm only down 8 lbs... i should be down 11.. i won't make my goal weight this week.. and i might also be angry that i have to stop this early for my mom to come into town. if its anger about those things, its a way over reaction... it feels to imbedded to be be those things tho.. it almost feels like old anger.. if that makes any sense at all.
GW - 115
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