In the beginning.... by Willa Need Power Blog entry

Blog: Changes for Life (formerly: My 30 Day Juice Fast Challenge)
by Willa Need Power

In the beginning....

I am starting a 30 day juice fast. To help lower need of medication, weight loss and to feel better.

Date: 10/30/2006 8:30:32 AM ( 18 y ) ... viewed 3576 times

Today I am committing myself to starting a 30 day juice fast. I have been reading here at Curezone some interesting expeiences of success and trials.

Quickly to recap my last year, the diagnosis fibromyalgia was removed from my medical record when they found two thoracic fractures. They were old and healed but not without complications of scar tissue, compensation pain, depression and total demoralation from the medical community. You see it took them over 15 years to listen to my complaints and finally look at my back.

When they found the fractures, a doctor put me on a fentanyl patch. First off the wrong dose which almost killed me and refused to listen to me when I would call and tell him the severe side effects. He then put me on adderall to combat the fatitue. The continued to add more pain meds and try antidepressants and next thing you know 9 months had gone by and nothing but drug had been given to me.

I got pneumonia in January and got shuffled off to a new doc. He looked at my chest xrays and I asked him for help with the fractures. He looked at my chart and exclaimed "who did this to you? who put you on these meds?" He was in shock. He immediatly ordered me an MRI and bone density test. Referred me to physical therapy to break up the scar tissue and get me some pain relief.

Next was to get off this deadly patch. It took me over 4 months to slowly go off the drug which has left me deeply depressed in despair, 30 lbs or more heavier and a career that is falling apart.

I am still on some pain meds and suffer from alot of pain. (doctor saids my body cries for the narcotic) I eat obsessively with the pain and anxiety to relieve some of my symptoms. I have to change. I have to move forward and no one can do it for me. I have to do it.

So, off I go on this adventure. My goal is to feel better. Lower or eliminate my need to medication. Get back on track with my career. Loose the weight I have gained. Develope more control of my eating habits and to think more clearly.

I am starting with a 5 day preparation of fruit and vegetables prior to the 30 day juice to prepare my body and I suppose my mind. I know this challenge will be tough because I do not a have a group of friends to support me. I have become very isolated through my health problems. I started with a SWF this am and then this blog. I feel somewhat nauseated which I attribute to anxiety and fear. It should pass in time. I don't want to weigh. I feel that will be more than I could bear at this time but I will soon. One step at a time....

Is it deliberate that the word "stressed" is "desserts" backwards? Wish me luck, courage and strength. I need it.

Willa