Day 12 boredom, however, some realizations..
Date: 7/31/2006 10:26:37 AM ( 15 y ) ... viewed 2271 times
Woke up really late.. Almost 1pm. And yet, I slept at around 1am. Huh. Around 12hours of sleep. That's too much. But I just couldn't get myself to stand up.. It's been raining (as usual), and the weather's really cold. Sigh.. I really miss the sun.
Today isn't any good. Still couldn't get past my feelings of being bored with my fast.. I don't even know why I'm bored.. Maybe the ritual of juicing? Or maybe I don't have enough variety in my fruits or vegetables? I don't know. But I still want to finish with 21 days..
I had only 1 juice today. I just didn't feel like having anymore.. I don't know if this is going to continue until tomorrow.. Maybe I'll just finish the rest of the fast on water.. I'm not sure. But I don't think I can do that. Just thinking about it makes me weak..
I made herb cheese sticks for my brothers. It looked and smelled really good. But I didn't even try and taste one. Yay. Still have the willpower. :)
I realized something about myself today. I realized how much I depended on food to fill up or ease some of my emotions. Like what I read from some writings, there's this void or whatever that I try to fill up by eating food. And wow, that's some realization for me. I mean, I read about it and everything but I just didn't feel like it applied to me. And now I know that it does. :) And now I can do something about it the next time. :)
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