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Day Eleven and Twelve
at crossroads and confused...
Date: 4/11/2006 9:44:30 AM ( 18 y ) ... viewed 1695 times I really don't know what to do. Yesterday I felt very sick to my stomach. Part of it was that I wanted to throw up(I'm guessing I put juiced too much parsley). Then it felt like my stomach had cramps. At first my stomach would cramp and stay that way and then finally let go. What a relief. Well I think it was my stomach. It didn't fell like hunger pains though. I also had pain in my mid back but I think that was from the chair I was sitting in.
I lost a pound on day eleven and then today I woke up today and was down by another(down by 22 total). Also, my tongue was extremely white today. I know I am going though more detox.
I have an issue at hand. On my vacation I am going to visit my boyfriend. Anyways... He wants me to go back on solids food because he wants to have dinner with a president of a company (thats not a definate...but a possibility). In some ways I want to especially after yesterday. In other ways I don't... I've come so far and have so far to go!!! I wanted to do 45 days at the least. He told me that I could go back on the juices when I get back. But I really don't want to start all over esp when I am on day 12 already. Right now I am leaning towards staying on my fast but I dont know. I keep thinking tha one thing we both want is for me to lose weight. My boyfriend has never known what it is to have a lot of extra weight. He doesn't understand addiction to food so it makes it hard. I guess today I will be debating. I know that if i stay on the fast that I will definately not cheat at all.
Other issues... All my life I always wanted to lose the weight. But mentally I hate the fact that I have to give up the foods that I love. I was hoping that by some chance the want to eat the foods would cease a little. I guess because I am at crossroad.... all these thoughts are coming up. I know in time I may be able to enjoy some of the foods but in moderation.
I'll write more later... until then I am debating....
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