Day 5 Axiety arised BUT I Feel Strong!

Anxiety attack/day 5

Date:   6/30/2005 8:23:27 PM   ( 19 y ) ... viewed 2604 times

Okay Day 5. Some of the sick little twisted withdrawl symptoms are lessening it's teeth on me thank god. I still don't feel comfortable to drive especially with my 3 year old in the car with me.I still feel really just "off". I felt today like my home was a prision and I just HAD to get out. I recogize the feeling from my before paxil days as an anxiety attack..I felt like I could'nt breath..so much to do here.never lets done.laundry, dishes, people calling not really friends just all the damn telemarketers. I felt Like I was gonna just throw things so My husband took me and my son out for a drive......and to a movie, we went to see "war of the worlds" great movie by the way. My husband got snaks for him and my son and me a nice bottled water.and I didn't even cheat when he asked me to hold his nachos with cheese while he took our son to the bathroom! Im so proud of myself!!!! The movie took my mind off things for a bit.....now home husband BBQed for him and my son.....God I always love his BBQ. BUT I reminded myself that kind of food will be around long after Im done with my fast and I can have it after my fasting is done....JUST NOT NOWWWWW!!!

I feel good and strong really I do. I have some energy today and want to clean the house as much as I can. I feel alot of HOPE. I KNOW I CAN DO THIS!! It's hard....Im trying to think back to my days in NAVY BOOTCAMP.I never thought I's get through that but I did. BUT I had to push myself.and push so hard like I never had before. Im trying to remember how I talked myself into surviving...so IAm my own cheerleader right now.internally. And I keep reading posts from here and researching people that have been testimonial to the success of fasting. Im not so different from other.I know If they can do it so can I. I let the successes be my inspiration. Im on day 5.....today......I slipped into a pair of jeans I had hiding in my closet for awhile now. It's my reward for doing well. I have a feeling I'll wear them tommorow to JUST give me the reminder that this fast is paying off.not only in my getting off paxil but also my wieght.

I weighed 184 this morning. I ONLY weigh myself once a day in the am after I void, right after I awake. Being a failed dieter of many times, I have learned a great lesson NOT to become OBSESSED with the number on the scale all day long. One day at a time the numbers will change but they will never change every hour on the hour. So I only wiegh ONCE A DAY. I feel that's good advice for anyone. Please take that one:) Okay going back to my cleaning. comments welcome:)

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