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Day 10, Friday May 20 Hit the hunger wall! BANG!!! Well, last night I hit the hunger wall for the first time in these ten days! Wow, it was just as strong and powerful as I remembered it to be!
And the power of my fleshly rationalization and attempted deception by the enemy was - if I hadn't been in the thick of the battle - almost downright comical, it was so ridiculous! <shaking my head in amazement> I could eat because _________! God wanted me to eat because_____! This fast was unnecessary and foolish because _______! All of you who have fasted for even half a DAY can fill in the blanks with the utterly ridiculous lies the enemy supplies in our weakness! I didn't eat, by the grace of God, although honestly, the number of saltines I allow for a buffer with my pain medication quadrupled - <sigh> So maybe we should say I DID eat. Either way, I didn't run upstairs and gorge like I was tempted to... I got through it by the strength of my LORD alone. A few extra saltines won't kill my fast, for sure. BUT the saltines are not allowed any longer, period. TA DA! (she wrote with a regal, resolved flourish)  I have ONE pill a day just before bed to buffer my stomach for the one pain pill I still take at night. Saltines are not the best buffer, ARE they? Silly me. Now I'm beginning to perk up a little mentally and physically, I can find a different buffer than white flour poison squares, can't I?  Even two or three tablespoonsful of raw apple sauce would be a more logical alternative, yes? I chose the saltines because I knew it was what the hospital shoves down people's throats for upset tummy buffers. But I'm not IN the hospital anymore! Ok, gang, that's not ALL the father of lies has been whispering in my ear <stern look> He's been telling me that I'm worthless now in God's service without my job. Horseradish! That is a lie and I reject it! There are several other lies - some horrendous, some ridiculous, but ALL untrue - that are flying around this place right now. I am under attack. So was our dear LORD when He fasted. He countered all the lies with Scripture. I'll do the same. Greater is He that is in me than he that is in the world, after all! Not by might, not by power, but by YOUR SPIRIT, my LORD and God! This day I'll set myself in Scripture and prayer. Sometimes fasting is hard work, and we all know it. SO BUCK UP, SOLDIER! Have any of you ever found that, when pressed in a spiritual battle that involves depression or discouragement and low feelings - that SINGING right out loud pushes the enemy away? I have I'm going to sing, I think. Be glad you're on a message board, not a telephone, fellow warriors!  La, LA, la...... I'll let you know how it goes Add This Entry To Your CureZone Favorites! Print this pageEmail this page  Alert Webmaster
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