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Wednesday, May 11, DAY ONE Day one of the actual fast-Wednesday, May 11, 2005 Day one is here! I've been fasting since 9pm last night, but I'm counting a 'day' as starting in the morning and ending in the morning, so this is officially day one. My surgery is tomorrow. It'll be over soon, and then I can come back home on Friday. What a relief THAT will be! If all goes well, this will be my last surgery for a VERY long time. I have some fears, of course, but for the most part I'm looking forward to having a summer at home, recovering. When was the last time I could spend a whole summer at home, like a school kid without a job? I have to fix up my resume and send one out today. The ad lists a deadline of May 16th within which they will accept resumes. I'll fix mine up today and send it out. At any rate, the school year doesn't start 'till mid August, so I'll be free the whole summer....penniless, but free! There's an upside to most things, isn't there? It's obvious that this is 'my time' to fast. Besides the cancer, which absolutely necessitates it, when else will I have three solid months of no responsibility EVER AGAIN? And, as when I was on the Gerson, I can always say, when I begin to be uncomfortable, "Well, it's better by FAR than chemotherapy must be!" That's the truth! Instead of injecting my body with killing chemicals, I'm fasting, allowing my body to recover, repair, and resume health. If I were taking chemotherapy, I'd be dizzy, weak, nauseous, have headaches, etc.. With my fast, I'll have some days of the same, due to detox. But detox is moving toward health, a GOOD result. I want to keep that fact in the front of my mind when I suffer the detox episodes. Health, or poison? Which am I going to choose? Both will require all my efforts for the next six months..although fasting might require less time. Establishing raw eating patterns might take a little more time, but I'm encouraged about that. The six weeks I ate raw, I was SO happy, inside and out. I loved it, and so going back to it will not be a hardship, although it may require some more adjustment. I even bought a food dehydrator, and was doing things like making raw 'cookies' out of uncooked oatmeal, cinnamon, and ground organic apple and bananna, mixed together and dehydrated into a cookie texture...MmmMMm! No, switching back to all organic, raw will not be a problem for me! My husband has promised me he'd take me and the dog for lots of summer evening drives during the four/six week period I am not allowed to drive post-surgery. We have a golden retriever we rescued. She has poor health due to heartworm damage and only has three legs from some sort of accident she had before we found her. So the big joke around here is who'll get more excited when my husband picks up his keys and says; "Wanna go for a ride?" <chuckle> Me, or the dog? But to the best of my ability within the circumstances, I intend to FULLY ENJOY this summer. Summer is my favorite season to begin with. We've got a lovely gazebo with screens, so I can rest my recovery days away out there. I am determined to fully experience the OTHER pleasures God gives me BESIDES food. There are plenty to focus upon during this fast time. The last time I fasted, however, I was teaching. This made it easier in one sense, because I was busy. My energy level often presented a challenge because I had so much responsibility. But this time, I can accomodate my energy levels throughout the fast, but I'll be STUCK at home with no distractions! I wonder if that will end up a blessing, or a hardship? I'm hoping to spend the bulk of my fast time totally engrossed in God's Word, meditation, and prayer. This journal will be a record of that -- that's why I set it up. We'll see --- The great experiment has begun, kids! I won't be around tomorrow, nor Friday morning. Last mastectomy I had, I couldn't bear to write or type for a bit, so give me a few days. I haven't given the blog up, just need some time to recover from the surgery, ok? Mercy and Truth! Add This Entry To Your CureZone Favorites! Print this pageEmail this page  Alert Webmaster
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