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Archeological Digging!
Brief summary of Pre-Earth Fair and Post
EarthFair energies. Where do I go from
here?
Date: 4/25/2007 10:49:44 AM ( 17 y ) ... viewed 1209 times 8:30 AM
April 25, 07
The great Essene 20th Century Renaissance Prophet
Edmond Bordeaux Szekely spent part of his life
on archeological digs. These are reflected
in numbers of his books about Meso-America and
the Mayan and Aztec Cultures.
Szekely was a master of healing tropical illness
and he dipped into homeopathy as well; much
of that aspect of his work may not be known.
Archeological Dig?
The words come to mind this morning
as I survey the rubble in my ajoining bedroom
and office
The project in May 07: Restore life in this space,
after weeks and weeks of day and night preparations,
cutting corners, and mending cracks from crisis.
My head is reeling, kinda headachy.
Yesterday was the first day I actually stopped
the world and got off, and a time when getting off
would be a major disregard of all I have set in motion
in pre-and post Earth Day.
Surprizingly, rather than pressure, yesterday morning
was bliss.
I spent the day lounging on my bed,
making phone calls.
I was overflowing with love,
and wanted to return some calls of dear ones
who had left messages.
I had to tell Cutty point blank, "I love you."
God was he a lifesaver.
I had 80% or more of my preparation for the San Diego
Earth Fair to do the last two days.
Cutty came over on Saturday, the day before
Take Off in the EG Mobile. He helped me get
the EG Mobile back into shape, spending hours
helping me. He reset the bed. He made the bed
with sheets and bedspread. He helped me set the
Feng Shui. He put all the things in the EG Mobile
I had to take to Balboa Park.
Just thinking of this touches me deeply.
I am forever indebted to this man.
This was not the first time he came to my aid--
I write about that below.
I feel so very supported by Cutty and his mate Jana.
O.K., 80 or more % of preparation
for a massive event with far reaching implications.
How did I get in that bind?
This is how I got in that bind:
1. An enormous energy outlay beginning and somewhat
successfully transforming feelings around Twin Soul/ Best Friend.
2. A Sunday Pre Passover Seder at Hidden Valley Retreat
with Stephen Markowitz. I woke up that morning with no
idea how I could possibly get up there. I had no Vehicle.
Diane New Cohen took me to the FM; then Cutty remarkably
extended himself, driving me up to Hidden Valley, leaving
and returning that evening to pick me up--a drive of more
than 100.
That was a day of immense healing.
My head was transformed. An oracle
I had met the week before told me she
had a dream where I was in passionate embrace
with a High Goddess who was healing me totally
through sexuality. That came about three days
after Twin Soul/Best Friend gave me my Walking Papers
and her famous "I would like my Cake and Eat it too" speech.
She wanted me as her best friend. She wanted me to be
fine with her pulling back the Veils and while she prepped to
be available to be a new couple with someone else.
Only a Queen could imagine that would be O.K.
The Oracle helped me see the that Twin Soul/Best Friend
was basically letting me go so that I would be available
for something new. The Oracle said, send love and appreciation
to Twin Soul/Best Friend.
My head space definitely shifted that day,
and yet there was a lot of stuff underneath--
angry feelings, sad feelings I had to process.
Didn't she have a clue what she was giving up?
I did not feel valued. Didn't she realize how
good it was, how perfect?
I wrote a ton about this here:
http://curezone.com/blogs/m.asp?f=1103&i=1
Makes me want to barf to imagine that was acceptable
abuse that I accepted in previous years from other
best friends.
2. The History Curezone Crash of April 1. Could I recover
268 or so Blogs that presented much of my foundation work
between early January and April 1.
3. The Passover and "Don't Eat the Matzah Seder"
on a Tuesday night. For Women and One Man dancing
toward the end.
4. The energy of Easter and Good Friday...the day I
committed for the first time that I would accept
Twin Soul/Best Friend in her desire to not have sex anymore.
I committed for the first time to that for me.
5. The Loss of use of the EG Mobile to a prolonged
makeover down at Sunset Auto Body--ten days or more
without her to drive, during critical times of prep.
6. The setting of an intention to draw in my most
compatable Soul Mate, with an affirmation
from Lorie Newell.
The arrival a few days later
of a Very Remarkable Woman in my Life--Let's call her
VRW. A very High Powered Exec Secretary of one of
the Jewish Renewal organizations that I have had
push/pull with for many years, we spent #'s of days
boing back and forth with delightful emails, that to
some extent were a distraction from the deeper pain I was
likely suppression.
When we leave one relationship, there is always that
feeling--will we ever see love again? Does anyone
want me?
For a few days, we were on a honeymoon via email,
and it looked like someone perhaps did.
She was delighting in
Your EG, and saying things like "What took you so long
to get here?"
That energy has shifted somewhat...I am Open,
but there is a Big Whoa...no matter what, it was
a Delightful Healing Gift from the Universe to
experience The Email Honeymoon.
[Save Part One 8:50 AM]
What else cause the lost of Prep time
for the San Diego Earth Fair?
7. A number of days being in the energy of Angelene,
my sweet housemate. Her dad died in surgery and that
energy was around the house. At the same time,
Earthfair was approaching.
The folks from the Tree of Life Rejuventation Center
wanted to stay here while they did an exhibit at
the EarthFair.
They are Vegan Raw Essenes Purists; I have a household
of Meateaters and Vegetarians, Junk food devotees
to delightful epicures of chocolates.
I had to process that out.
I saw I represent Jensen's Balanced Living Regimen.
That is a Blog I have not had time to write called
"Friend Meat & Raw Food," the day of their arrival,
Saturday April 21.
The whole visit was delightful, and my housemates
really gained a lot. I imagine they may have learned
a few things too. Angelene said they were amazed
how clean our house was!!!
What else was in my energy field?
[ Oh My God!
Back from eating some blackberries and
apricots from a can for breakfast.
Eating some raw cashews too!
I am feeling so much love from Twin Soul/Best
Friend...I hear she did not show up at an event
on Sunday that she likes very much.
How is she doing???? Is she hurting?
I am having to resist calling her...
I am feeling impulsive...
better go check emails...to escape these
feelings... 9:50 AM]
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