Moving Shen
Middle of the night musings.
Making sense of connecting with
Twin Soul/Best Friend on the Beginning
of the Fifth Day.
Date: 11/28/2006 5:07:54 AM ( 18 y ) ... viewed 1109 times 2:33 AM
November 28, 06
The Three Treasures of Traditional
Chinese Medicine are Shen, Jeng,
and Chi.
Shen is consciousness.
Jeng is potential.
Chi is activation, or activity.
Something like Life Force.
We trade Jeng in for higher and higher
expressions of Shen when the
World is moving toward Peace on Earth.
In the Enchanted Garden, Shen can be
seen as Unbroken Wholeness in Flowing Movement.
Unbroken Wholeness in Flowing Movement
is the definition of Consciousness in the
Mindframe of David Bohm, one of my favorite
quantum physicists who spent time studying
with Khristnaturti (sp?).
Relationship--
the purpose of relationship--
is to help us complete our unfinished business.
The purpose of relationship is to move Shen
in the direction of Oneness, i.e, the Unbroken
Wholeness is Flowing Movement.
Whenever we connect intimately with another,
if we are playing for real, we will be stirred.
The last few days I have felt a ton of emotions.
Yesterday I went in for acupuncture.
Jessica asks, "What are you here for?"
I mention my knee, the thing we worked on last.
"Is there anything you can do for confusion?"
I want to know.
She says, "yes."
Spent some hours with Twin Soul/Best Friend
Friday to Saturday eve semi early dark.
She is my most consistent pot stirrer.
Being with her, is like opening the Pandora's Box
of all the unfinished business that is up for me.
It often takes days to get a sense of what
I am feeling, there can be so much.
Such was the case this time.
I would love to believe I live in a sane world
where the material expressions are the foundation
of my being, and the laws of mechanics make perfect sense.
I have had no less than five incidents I can recall
that suggest Twin Soul/Best Friend and I live in some
kind of soup of consciousness, and the things we do
or think can have impact on our mechanical world.
For six months once, I had this broken lock stuck
in the side of my laptop. The Apple folks said be careful
if I attempt to hacksaw it off; I could hurt the machine.
One eve--an eve I sent the night with Twin Soul/Best Friend,
I had the computer in the bedroom. The next morning,
I woke up to do some writing. The lock fell out.
Two other times, my computer has crashed. Once
the instant she entered the room. Another, while attempting
to play an Itune--It was never the same until I rebuilt
the harddrive.
Three times--the EG Mobile has been apparently influenced,
once breaking down at the gas station around the corner when
I wanted to spend the night, but was not welcomed.
Two other times, I wanted to leave, but the EG Mobile but
something in the Shen may have wanted me to stay, or at least
take a deep look at the dynamics between us.
The EG Mobile has had a tough summer, but seemingly was
in good shape until I attempted to start and go home,
Saturday night. It would not start.
I had already said goodbye.
Twin Soul/Best Friend was starting to get antsy about me leaving.
We had spend lots of hours in deep love expression, but the
ending for me could have been a bit more harmonious.
I wssn't as if I wanted to be stay longer than I was welcome.
I would rather honor the boundaries between us, even if the boundaries
may be set up my mind constructs influenced by unfinished business.
There was a part of me that wanted to go home, and felt
there was something at home for me to do that was important.
Another part would have enjoyed staying in the L.A. area,
maybe spending some time visiting my father and sister.
I have been mulling through this for a couple hours now.
I am asking, was there anything in our energetics
that could have caused the EG Mobile to want to stay put?
Since coming home, I have turned the vehicle on an off no less
that eight times for numbers of trips. No problems. Nothing was
fixed. I haven't a clue what was mechanically wrong, as yet.
Here are a few things I am remembering in consciousness:
There is nothing I can do to "fix" her
or change her. All I can do is accept what she is up to.f
What else would I like to clear in my energy field
between us, through saying what?
Lots more I could say here...
eyes and head gratefully tired and ready for more sleep.
3:05 AM
9:43 AM
She comes she goes.
She comes in special moments.
We connect in special moments.
We connected on the Beginning of the Fifth Day.
She played the Jaguar.
I played the Plumed Serpent.
She was wild.
She was vulnerable.
I was vulnerable too.
I was passionate too.
Then, we go back to our individual lives,
to our individual Seed Dreams.
This is the way it is.
Enjoy it.
Appreciate it.
She helps me understand where my dark corners are.
I help her in ways she only can say.
It is physical. It is healing.
It is powerful.
IT has a beginning, a middle, and an end
to each moment of NOW.
Accept it.
Be with it.
Feel it.
Bless it.
Take your little child in arms,
and love him more for putting him
through such intense lovemaking
and intense risk of loving without
commitment.
Apologize. Apologize to yourself
for being so in the moment without
reservation. Applaud yourself
for letting your life be this rich.
Now go back.
Get on with your life, Leslie.
She comes, she goes.
You do not have to leak out all over the place
wondering what will become of me?
You must have yourself, Leslie,
or you have nothing.
Build your own Center
and from this place go out.
Bless Her in all she does.
Do not ask her to be anything more
than she can willingly be in
any giving moment.
Do not stop her from learning
anything that she feels she needs
to know or experience.
This, my friend, is Love.
9:50 AM
and then return to the work
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