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Trusting Spirit
I have been Trusting Spirit...
lots of Blogs on this Whole Story
of the first days of The Ten Days of Awe...
Date: 10/7/2005 12:13:08 PM ( 19 y ) ... viewed 1111 times IT is Friday as I am writing,
looking back.
There are lots of Blogs on my week.
See links below. Thanks for reading
my week's adventures!!!
love from Your eg
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IT is Monday Morning October 3.
I thought I would be at Sarina's by now
or did some part of me what the EG Mobile
to break down in Orange County so I could
sleep in the home of a friend where I truly wanted
to be. Did I manupulate the Universe, or it is the
Universe that manipulates us?
Are their Angels and Archangels really involved?
Spirit guides?
Are we making this all up?
I am having a headache.
I am really feeling like throwing up
as the morning unfolds.
I am suppose to be in the City of Angels
already.
So what is wrong with the Eg Mobile that is in the shop
nearby?
The morning unfolds.
I am not really that comfortable being in this house
under these circumstances. I was not asked in this time.
I would like something other between us now to be happening,
some freedom to be listening to each other at a deeper level,
but instead there are two tired people doing their best
to make the most of a potential trying morning.
So finally the word comes that they cannot find anything
wrong with the EG Mobile. It takes a battery charge
and is ready for the road.
Great.
Nothing is wrong?
A battery charge is all that is needed.
This does not make any human sense if I define
the world in only 3D.
Yesterday was Sunday.
I leave the housein San Diego for LA.
I have given my Word I will be at Santa Monica Beach and blow
the Shofar.
I am feeling stuck between my lower self and tiredness.
My Soul is absent...but then inspiration STRIKES.
Hooray!! I grap stuff and stick in in the EG Mobile.
No Feng Shui. I got to get out to the FM, grap some food,
and get out of Dodge. I need to be 100 or more miles from
here by Sundown.
So then, I pull off the freeway to a familar gas station in
Los Alamitos. I fill up. Then, I turn on the key. No juice.
The vehicle is totally dead.
Fast Forward:
Monday morning around 10 AM.
I get the message from the mechanic.
Nothing is wrong with the EG Mobile.
Nothing is wrong with the vehicle?
I am not sure I trust this.
So I call Sarina and tell her.
I am coming up and I will likely need a ride
to Brandeis Bardin, about another 50 miles north.
I am not going to trust the vehicle to get me to
the hot Simi Valley where they are already burned out
this week with fires.
That is all I need. Stuck in the fire zone.
God only knows. I will leave the EG Mobile at Sarina's home and hitch a ride.
Fast Forward:
I am in the backyard of Sarina's.
Yes, we will take you up to Brandeis.
We are leaving in 15 minutes.
I have a headache.
He was likely all the Shamanic healing from yesterday.
Dona CC really blasted me in the tent and I was letting
go of Layers for the New Year.
Good headache material.
Toxin free living.
So Goddess #2 of the residence, my Shabbat Bride of many years,
a very special writer and editor and lover of "Because She is a Woman"
is kevching about this terrible ride in from the airport.
She is missing
missing wanting
yearning to hear from her
beloved who is now in Holland.
IT is so REFRESHING!!!!
A yearning woman who let's it be...
a moving, screaming, say it like it is woman...
She says she is not going up to Brandeis this year...
Nope... She is going to stay home tonight and do
the High Holidays here in a small Way.
She is not into the stand up, sit down routine
passive prayer mode.
Then, she goes for a nap.
I go for a nap after feeling this horrific headache
of toxins moving through me.
I tell Sarina...I am not going.
I like what Goddess #2 says...
"I do not go out to public places if I have nothing to give.
That is the time I stay home to take care of my body.
Her back is really hurting.
So here I am feeling upset
because I wanted some hugs from
the ONE who I let pull my heartstrings
but she was not available...
"I am not into being touched NOW."
{wise women always say NOW...
but that is another poem...]
and I am in a nap mode in the backyard.
I have surrendered.
I have told Sarina I am not going with her.
and then, I am dozing off.
Then I feel lips kissing me goodbye
while I am in a semi doze;
and ten minutes later Goddess #2 is reaching
across me for something, and I feel a nipple
across my face.
That Monday eve evening is a real delight
just doing some light eating and simple massage.
Scene Change:
The next morning I am thinking...
do I trust the EG Mobile and take it up to Brandeis????
Is this a test of spirit??????
YES.
I get up...
I start to get ready to go to Brandeis.
I realize I have forgotten my hairbrush.
So I go up to Goddess #2 and ask her to comb my hair.
She offers to brush my hair.
hmm...next best thing I like next to making love
is having my scalp stimulated.
One hour later. I am still not out the door.
Goddess #2 seduced me to be present
by combing my hair and rubbing me with oils
on my head...
Then, about an hour later...
long after I thought I would be gone
I am in the backyard...giving and getting
massage touch.
What a way to start the year.
I call her a seductress.
"Yes I am a seductress. All Massage people
are seductresses. We seduce people into relaxing."
she says.
So finally, I leave.
I go to Whole Foods and buy some
Sushi...
Should I turn off the engine????
DO I trust???
I turn it off...
Then I shop...and go back to the vehicle.
Hmm...is this going to start???
YES, it starts...
So what the F-K was all that about yesterday
with the battery burnout???? I mean WHAT
is going on here and who is in CHARGE????
I am not running into any more car problems..
because my SOUL is NOW RUNNING THE SHOW....
Scene Change:
leaving Brandeis later that afternoon.
Dali offers me a cell phone, just in case I have car
problems....how sweet, how caring...
he is part of the tribe...a former lover of the Dancer,
another of the Characters in my life...
but that is another story...
See my sexy book, "Symphonic Fantasies..."
he is the inspiration of the man in the Poly scene
of the poem.
Back to the story:
Car trouble??? What Car trouble...
I am on Mission...
NO EG MOBILE Trouble any more!!!
ONE MORE Aside:
I wanted to go up to see the House of the Book,
where the burn was. We normally pray up there.
THe Exec OFficer for Bnai Horin says:
"NO! NO! NO!" NO one goes up there...
she has a list of reasons...
My spirit said...go up and give some of the healing water to the
trees...but I surrendered and did an alternative ritual with the women
where we were safe and out of harm's way...(according to the exec)
So I am about to leave Brandeis...
I surrendered to not going up to the House of the Book.
I am about to pull out...
A car pulls up. IT is Daniel, the Brandeis caretaker.
"Say, you can go up to the House of the Book," he says,
but do not tell the Exec."
"No, I do not want to break her rule...but I will go up if you take
me...
So he takes me up to the House of the Book and I take some photos.
Spirit said go up there
so I went up there.
So, what is the Message:
I do not know where I am going to be next.
I am listening and following as best I can
what is being asked of me.
your eg
All these Blogs are interrelated
and talk about Mystical Adventures
during the Opening Ten Days of Awe:
Still House:
http://curezone.com/blogs/m.asp?f=92&i=848
Sexuality and Holiness:
http://curezone.com/blogs/m.asp?f=92&i=849
I feel like making Love:
http://curezone.com/blogs/m.asp?f=92&i=851
Camel#2:
http://curezone.com/blogs/m.asp?f=92&i=850
Camel #1:
http://curezone.com/blogs/m.asp?f=92&i=846
Ram's Horn at Sunset:
http://curezone.com/blogs/m.asp?f=92&i=843
Healing Sea:
http://curezone.com/blogs/m.asp?f=92&i=852
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