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Day 1
Today is the beginning.
I am on day one of a 80-85 day water fast to lose 115 lbs,whichever comes first.
I currently weigh 102.2 kgs.my goal weight is 50 kgs.
I am 5'7,Indian(south Indian)
And 19 years old
Date: 12/10/2012 2:43:19 PM ( 12 y ) ... viewed 11245 times Today is the beginning.
I am on day one of a 80-85 day water fast to lose 115 lbs,whichever comes first.
I currently weigh 102.2 kgs.my goal weight is 50 kgs.
I am 5'7,Indian(south Indian)
And 19 years old.
I am 3 hours into the first day.
I will drink 3-4 l of water everyday,no enemas.
I will note my weight and measurements everyday.
The remaining 15-20 days will be for me to get off the water fast safely with juice.
I have been trying for the last 2 days to start the water fast and keep failing when I reach the 23rd hour.maybe cause I'm scared of starting,cause then il have no reason to quit.
I really want to know what it's like to be skinny.....I have been overweight all my life.
Maybe that's what made me want to excel in every other field in life....I study really hard,I have a really good personality once people decide I'm worth getting used to.i have really good taste in fashion....but unfortunately,in India,the clothing lines are not plus size friendly......I also am really good at public speaking and presentations.
But being fat really brings me down somethimes.my self esteem suffers a lot.
I am not able to be in a relationship because I don't believe that the other person could possibly love me when I don't love myself.
I mean,let's be honest here,no matter how we look,settling doesn't feel nice,yet we expect others to settle for us.
I want to be thin....be able to feel attractive...fall in love with my self....be able to trust .......be able to dress as I like......be happy.
I know that losing weight doesn't solve all the problems,but it does solve a few..
I sometimes tell my self that the only thing that was my responsibility is my weight....my features,brain,personality are all hereditary or developed by society.the one thing I was supposed to manage well was my weight,and I hav failed miserably.
I intent to change that.
I want to be a perfectionist.
The only reason nobody is perfect,is because nobody tried.
I want to try,and my first and most difficult hurdle is my weight.
I want to succeed.and this is me writing to my self to remind me every time I feel like eating something,that this is bigger than one meal.this is me changing my life.
Thank you for reading.
Any sort of motivation and advice in succeeding is welcome
Ps:please do not try to convince me off this plan,cause I finally have the strength to start and I don want to be stopped.this is a humble request
Thanks again.
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