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one hour at a time
Date: 5/26/2010 8:25:27 AM ( 14 y ) ... viewed 2924 times Okay - a new day and a new opportunity. I'll take today in hourly increments. I can do that.
Breakfast was a banana washed down with a mixture of distilled water, pomegranate juice and apple cider. Almonds for a crunchy snack.
I packed a green salad with balsamic dressing and strawberries for lunch. I have sunflower seeds for another crunchy snack. I have an apple - but it's not going to get eaten the way I feel about it now. However - it is my feelings that I am attempting to tame in this discipline.
For dinner? I have fresh broccoli and carrots at home waiting and a head of radicchio to crunch on.
It would be wise to shop for more tonight after my AA meeting.
So, that's my day. Perhaps a walk around the village to get perspective and gratitude before bed. I am so, so, so fortunate to live where I do. When I lived in the big city - walking at night before bed alone was a true death-threat.
Easy, easy, easy does it. I've been chanting the Lord's prayer all morning - 'forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who have trespassed against us'. Ex-husband asking for favors but giving only a mean attitude as a thank you. Perception is a funny thing - I must remember he is hurt and only wishing to protect himself. He cannot hurt me if I truly take care of myself and be kind to him as well. If I am mean, I am living in my hurt and expectations of him. I cannot do that today. I must follow G*d's teaching and G*d's wisdom - only then can I be like Daniel in the Lion's Den. I may be the only truly kind person he interacts with today and that is a responsibility I MUST uphold. G*d is depending on me to be responsible, mature, kind and balanced.
So, Day 1 (exhale). One hour at a time - I can do this and I am never alone.
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