one hour at a time

Date:   5/26/2010 8:25:27 AM ( 14 y ago)

Okay - a new day and a new opportunity. I'll take today in hourly increments. I can do that.

Breakfast was a banana washed down with a mixture of distilled water, pomegranate juice and apple cider. Almonds for a crunchy snack.

I packed a green salad with balsamic dressing and strawberries for lunch. I have sunflower seeds for another crunchy snack. I have an apple - but it's not going to get eaten the way I feel about it now. However - it is my feelings that I am attempting to tame in this discipline.

For dinner? I have fresh broccoli and carrots at home waiting and a head of radicchio to crunch on.

It would be wise to shop for more tonight after my AA meeting.

So, that's my day. Perhaps a walk around the village to get perspective and gratitude before bed. I am so, so, so fortunate to live where I do. When I lived in the big city - walking at night before bed alone was a true death-threat.

Easy, easy, easy does it. I've been chanting the Lord's prayer all morning - 'forgive us our trespasses as we forgive those who have trespassed against us'. Ex-husband asking for favors but giving only a mean attitude as a thank you. Perception is a funny thing - I must remember he is hurt and only wishing to protect himself. He cannot hurt me if I truly take care of myself and be kind to him as well. If I am mean, I am living in my hurt and expectations of him. I cannot do that today. I must follow G*d's teaching and G*d's wisdom - only then can I be like Daniel in the Lion's Den. I may be the only truly kind person he interacts with today and that is a responsibility I MUST uphold. G*d is depending on me to be responsible, mature, kind and balanced.

So, Day 1 (exhale). One hour at a time - I can do this and I am never alone.

 

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