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... on the edge ...
day 2 - struggles
Date: 2/11/2010 4:15:20 PM ( 14 y ) ... viewed 1091 times I'm constantly on the edge of disaster today, contemplating going home to get my credit cards to go out to buy food. (I specifically leave my wallet at home when I got to work these days so I won't have the means to give in to temptation!) Just now, someone cheerfully announced that there are cupcakes for everyone to help themselves to. Oh gosssshhhhhhhhhh... really? I'm starting to feel the fatigue. Starting to feel draggy. Tomorrow is breakfast day at work, so there will be a big breakfast spread.
But the good news is that I just figured out that Monday is a firm holiday, so I just have to come in to work one more time, tomorrow, and then by Tuesday it will be day 7, I should be back to around 52, should be completely de-bloated and feel comfortable in the clothes I was originally wearing. (I've been wearing my fat clothes for the last two weeks after I crashed.) That's actually pretty good motivation. I may weigh myself on Tuesday just to check in on how I'm doing, but I don't want it to defeat my motivation, feeling as though, oh, well, I'm back to where I was, this is good enough, when I know that I have the intention of losing more weight and then struggle to lose while refeeding, which is nearly impossible.
So! Resolved strengthened! Looking forward to getting lots of rest and just cleaning up this weekend. I think after today, I will be to the point where I just don't want to go through what I've had to go through to get that point.
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