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Day 4....I have to start over. 10:45 AM
I ate again, but I determined nto to give up!
Date: 3/26/2009 12:47:07 PM ( 15 y ) ... viewed 1983 times Okay, let me tell you about the crappy Day 2 evening I had:
First, I was so down and out about something that I ate another cookie...okay like 5 cookies and then I ate hot dogs! In my defense, I was really upset but COME ON! What in the hell was I thinking???!?!?! I am so dissapointed in myself. THis is why I was embarking on this journey in the first place because I am an emotional/boredom eater, meaning I eat not out of necessity but because I am upset or happy, or mad or whatever other emotion I have and worse, just because!!
Well, after last nights foolishness, I told myself, "No quitting" and I drank my tea, did some pilates and went to sleep. This morning, I did my salt water flush (well, half of it...I can't stomach the whole 36 oz) and I didn't have to go to the bathroom until 2 hours later. WHich is totally a problem (and my fault probably, seeing all the nasty crap I ate last night) because that is the time I'm on the bus headed to work.
Well, I finally made it to work and had a very liquidy BM and that was it. SO...let's recap:
I ate. Again. Decided no to quit. I know I can do this and I know I'm stronger than food. I'm not doing this to drop a couple of pounds, I doing this because I don't want to die when 50, 400lbs and not being able to walk up a single flight of stairs.
As punishment for my baddness, I am giving myself another 10 days, and I have all the determination to finish this, come hell or highwater and at the end I will reward myself with a cupcake. But just one. I promise.
Ciao Bella!
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